Greis and Rum (COMPLETED)

33- Not You

I looked at him and his eyes were filled with shock. He must be confused but what can I do? His eyes didn't give me the same sparkle when I said I want us to get married tomorrow and from when I said yes to his proposal. Does he think I'm kidding? Does he think I'm drunk? He held my cheek, "Wag tayo magmadali, love. It's okay for me to wait and besides, we're still going to plan for our wedding. It'll take time but it's okay."

"Are you sure ayaw mo bukas agad?" I asked to confirm.

He laughed.

Bakit ayaw mo kong pakasalan? Ayaw niya na ba sakin? I was just looking at him, scrutinizing but deep inside scared that I might hurt him. I felt my eyes water and my nose burning; I felt the need to catch my breath as I cry. Maybe I am drunk or just hurt, confused or all at once. Rumzuell was alarmed to see my stupid ass wiping my tears in front of him. But it was getting hard to show him that I'm okay. I really need to find a solution the quickest way possible.

"Hindi naman ako aalis. Dito lang ako at hindi ako mawawala sayo."

Napayapa ako at napanatag na hindi ko inakalang maiintindihan at matatandaan ko kahit nakainom ako sa mga sandaling to. Binibigyan niya ako ng lakas na lumaban. Napatingin na lang ako sa singsing ko.

Hinatid niya ako sa bahay ko at hindi na pinagmaneho kinabukasan kasi wala naman akong gagamitin. Yung isa kong sasakyan pinagamit ko kay Santana dahil pinapunta ko siya ulit ng La Union. Bumangon ako agad kahit medyo nahihilo. Wait, tinuloy ko bang sabihin kay Rum na pakasalan ako ngayon? Shit. If so, then I'm running late! Nagtatakbo ako sa cr at tsaka naligo at namili ng puting dress na formal. Below the knee or above the knee? Hindi naman siguro kami sisitahin sa munisipyo kung above the knee ang susuotin kong dress. It's my wedding.

I almost took another bath using my own perfume as soon I received his text message.

What came to me yesterday? It must be the spirit of the alcohol. Nevertheless, mas maganda na tong maaga kaming maikasal para tantanan na ako ng mga Santiago.

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From Rum
8:37 AM

Good morning, are you ready? I'm picking you up malapit na ko diyan. I love you and I can't wait to see you today.

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Tangina. Shit! Shit! Shit!

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From Rum
8:37 AM

Don't worry, boss madam, may dinaanan lang ako at hindi ako nagtetext habang nagdadrive.

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Hindi ko man lang naisip na baka nagtetext siya habang nagdadrive. Ugh. Masyado akong disoriented at sa araw ng kasal ko pa talaga? Shems, cannot be! I put my make up on and quickly took a purse na bagay sa outfit ko. Hindi na rin ako nag-umagahan since I wasn't feeling hungry because of my anxiety—wow, wala na ngang dinner wala pang breakfast. Mabilis akong bumaba as soon as I saw his car approaching from my balcony.

He looked perfect. He was the only person I could see as my sight blurred the rest.

"You looked prepared. Alam mo ba kung san tayo pupunta?" He asked after kissing me softly on my lips. I had my hands on top of his chest and fixed his polo before I answered "Of course no, I'm prepared. This is the day tapos hindi ako mag-aayos? Kumusta naman ako sa photos. Alangan namang chaka ako dun."

"Anytime of the day maganda ka parin."

I smiled from ear to ear.

"We'll be meeting our wedding coordinators for the first time! We're a few steps away from our wedding, yam." nawindang ako sa sinabi niya at agad naramdaman ang gutom sa sistema ko. A few steps away from what? I was shaken, I was dizzy and went literally out of my mind for a second. He guided my back and told me to sit back and relax. But I knew I needed to change my clothes, fuck, I think my cheeks are burning because of the embarrassment. I asked him if we could reschedule the meeting with our coordinators later. I fabricated a lie to get through it and told him I'll be doing something for the rest of the morning.