Greis and Rum (COMPLETED)

35- Consistency

There are people who abandoned me but there were also people who chose to stay with me. Not much but they were the right people that I needed. The media was still following me around to pester me and Rumzuell. Crazy rumors were out on social media platforms. This whole thing was making me so thirsty for a hangover after one busy night at the club. Unfortunately, I couldn't. Staying low was the best choice regardless of how sure I am that it wasn't me in the video or not. I had to keep myself safe from any other possible issues to link to me.

I've released a statement about the issue and since that day, we chose to stay low and take a break while we take care of it.

And now that the company is taking a big break after what happened, I had a lot of time hating the Santiago's—whom I know is behind this. As they were keeping up with my issues, they'd always spare me a spot on the front page and their evening news. I appreciated their effort to digging into my family issues that my parents are separated and all. I avoided using my phone or anything since my family issues were once again brought up. I guess they're really this persevered to bring me down along with them.

Some have said that maybe I am desperate; Some have said that I am just lustful and labeled me with such degrading words. It was funny to see how good people are at making comments and constructing conclusions after knowing only the tip of the iceberg. They didn't know me well enough to say those things. But then again, I was used to the cruelty. Maaga akong namulat sa katotohanan kaya hindi ko na alam ang dapat ko pang maramdaman.

I wanted to stay near to Rum who's going through a challenging time at work too...I guess. He doesn't want to talk about it when we're together even though I really want to know how everything was going on. Heller? Kinukumusta ko ang future husband ko no. Madalas ako sa bahay niya matulog dahil pakiramdam ko mas safe ako. But these past few nights, I'd wake up alone in the middle of the night and find him sitting alone in the balcony and I assumed he was stargazing since he was looking at the sky.

And every single time I try to say sorry, I am only able to whisper it to the wind.

I'm sorry for being such a shame.

I'm sorry for not being able to say sorry every time you need to hear it.

"Yam, bilisan mo na kumilos. You'll be late for work" sabi ko sa kaniya nang nakita kong nakatingin lang siya sa sarili niya sa salamin. He was abruptly taken aback with what I said "Oh, uh, y-yeah."

"Diba today na yun?"

He looked at me, confused "Ang alin?"

"Wedding coordinators. We've been putting that on-hold, love." I smiled at him and he smiled at me back but it didn't reach his eyes "Let's reschedule ulit? I'm kind of busy this week." He fixed his tie and that moment, I wished I knew how to do that. It would be fulfilling to help him fix his look. Di bale, I'll try to learn how to do it. I sighed, we both have to be present there.

"Let's eat dinner? I miss going out" I suggested after some silence.

"Oh, we can't go out yet. Mamaya sundan ka na naman eh."

I frowned.

He's been turning me down! Hmp!

"How busy are you ba to not spare me kahit just a little bit of your time? Yaaaam!" I hugged him from behind, using my charm on him. He laughed and kiss my temple before reaching for his keys. Sayang! I prepared my outfit of the day pa naman tapos wala parin. Kairita. Akala ko ay sabay kami ni Rumzuell mag-uumagahan but he was in a rush dahil hindi niya na nagawang inumin ang kape niya.

He's just busy.

Lilipas din to.

I shook the thought off my head because it felt wrong to demand attention, assurance and some affection. My head is going crazy and it's making me feel like I'm losing everything.