My Friend The Asshole

Four.

*THIS CHAPTER DID NOT GET EDITED*

Seth ended up dropping me off at the bus and him going on his way to Leighla. So I sat there in our huge bus, all alone. I knew I shouldn't feel pity for myself. John's cheating, but that's not my fault. Still though, I found myself crying over a tub of Mint Chocolate Chip Ice cream. It was completely ridiculous I knew that. But just the thought of him being with Nikki right now made me wonder why I wasn't good enough anymore.

Slowly I made my way to my closet. I needed a big sweater to comforct me. But as I opened the door our wedding box was the first thing I saw. Pulling it out I opened the top of the cardboard box. On the top was our video, then my dress. I put the dvd in the player and laid the dress out in front of me. The video slaowly started to play. I watched in tears as I began walking down the isle arm in arm with my dad. I had looked so happy, if only I could have realized how John was then.

Suddenly the bedroom door opened and Seth was standing at the door looking down to me. Without any words he sat down beside me and wrapped an arm around my shoulder. He knew what was going on, and he understood.

"I thought you were going to see Leighla?" I asked through the tears.

"I was. But something told me my best friend needed me.. and she called and said she went to vistit her parents." She smiled down at me.

"I'm sorry.."

"It's fine, I'd rather hang out with you than hear wedding talk anyway."

"I'm honored Mr. Rollins."

"Now tell me sweet cheeks, why in the hell are we setting here watching your wedding video and crying over your wedding dress?" Seth asked kissing the top of my head.

"I just wanted to see the way it used to be. How John and I had looked at each other. I needed to see what love felt like.." I trailed off wiping my tears.

"I hate to be the bearer of bad news but, he most likely never actually loved you."

I looked up at Seth with even more tears forming in my eyes. How could he say that?  He knew I loved John with every fiber of my being. John was my world.

"Colby don't pull that shit on me. I love John more than a person could love someone and he loves me. Yes, It breaks my fucking heart knowing he's probably fucking Nikki right now. I know I've been trying to pretend everything's going to be okay but it's not and I'm not.. my world is collapsing right in front of me and there is nothing I can do about it." I cried harder.

"You don't just stop loving someone. You either never did or still do. Obviously he doesn't and hasn't if he's going to be with one of the whores over you."

"I'm just not good enough anymore. I mean come on Colb, I know he's cheating and I'm still here.."

"You don't have to be. You could leave you know. Just because you wear that ring doesn't mean you sell your soul to him. All I've ever wanted for you is to be happy Nov, you're my best friend and I hate seeing you this way. You're the best person I have ever met.. I just wish you could realize that."

I looked up at Seth. Legitimately, he looked hurt. Like he was the one that was feeling the pain, and it broke my heart knowing I was the one to make him feel that way. 

Suddenly I felt myself pushing myself into Seth. Then before either of us could react, i felt the familiar taste of Seth on my lips. Something about it felt so wrong but so right. I knew right then I should have pulled away but it couldn't. 

"Do you want me to stop?" Seth asked breathlessly.

"No." I whispered crawling onto his lap straddling his leg hopelessly.

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this Nov.." Seth trailed kisses down my neck, "I just want to prove to you you're worth everything and anything."

"Colb, shut up and fuck me." I laughed kissing him again.

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The next morning I woke up and I laughed thinking about the dream I had. I couldn't figure out why I was dreaming about Seth and I sleeping together. Shaking my head I felt John's arm wrap around me. Don't get me wrong, I was pissed at him, but it was nice when he did the little things.

Snuggling back to him more I felt his head set in the crook of my neck, giving little kisses here and there. The rough hairs of his beard tickled me and I couldn't help but giggle.

"So you're growing your beard out now?" I giggled closing my eyes.

"I've had a beard since sophomore year, crazy."

Suddenly my eyes got big. It wasn't a dream. I had cheated on John with my best friend. What in the hell was I supposed to do. I felt my heart rate pick up but as soon as Seth began rubbing my arm and whispering everything would be okay I felt myself relaxing.

"Don't worry Nov. No one can hurt you." He whispered.

"Seth.." I spoke lowly without turning around, "I thing it's time you leave."

Seth set up and pulled me with him. I tried my hardest not to look at him but it was so hard. The way he was looking at me would tear me up, I just knew it. Finally mustering up the courage to look at him his deep brown eyes looked at me with sadness.

"Don't do this Nov. You can't do this..." He trailed off.

"I am Colby. I have a husband and you have a fiancé.  This never happened. We never happened. Just go. I'll talk to you on Monday.."

"if that's what you want.. then I'll talk to you Monday."

With that, Seth stood up and put his clothes on before leaving me in a puddle of my our tears. What in the hell just happened.

Author's note: Chapter Four is finally here! Please don't forget to comment and vote. Also I'd like to tell you all I have another WWE fanfic called Before so check that out!(:

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