My Friend The Asshole

Eighteen

*this chapter didn't get edited bc I'm lazy*

"Daddy, I want to come home." I cried.

He looked at me with the most confused look on his face. It made me question myself. Maybe I shouldn't have shown up here. He obviously didn't want me here. We never got along, probably never will. It was a long shot.

I picked up what was left of my pride and turned around. The tears poured from my eyes as I began walking back to my car. This was my last hope, now I had to go back.

"Wait." I turned around and my dad had opened the door wider, "We need to talk."

Without hesitation I walked back to the front door. I pondered giving my dad a hug but I thought it might be crossing the line. When I got to the front steps he did something he hadn't done since I was in the third grade. He hugged me.

"We can work things out. There has been some problems here. Better if we set down with your mother."

Nodding I let go of him and walked inside to the kitchen. My mother say at the table in her usual spot but I noticed she had been crying, hard. She looked up at me and was shocked. What was going on!?

"Baby, you're home!!" She hurried to her feet and pulled me closer than she ever had before.

I wrapped my arms around her but was still so confused. "Momma what's going on?"

"The real question is what's going on with you? I thought you'd never come back again.."

"Things didn't work out. Colby and I bought a house here, you know the one I'd always loved on 5th street?" She nod, "Well we argued over work stuff and I told him I needed to stay somewhere else for the time being. I got in my car and wound up here. Home."

"Sweet baby, I knew that boy was trouble. Always has been."

I tried to give her a sweet smile as I set down at the table. She and my dad sat down next. They both looked at each other then at me.

"Where's Gerard? I'm sure he'd love to be in here picking fun right about now." I chuckled a little thinking about my little brother.

That's when my mother lost it. Her face became red and tears cascaded down her face. I slowly began to worry.

"We were going to call you but we didn't know if it was too late. Your little brother came home from school and decided to go ride his stake board. He had his headphones on and a car behind him lost their breaks.. Your brother is gone."

"No." I was literally in shock, "please tell me this is some kind of sick joke. Gerard can't be gone. He can't. I-I just saw him and- oh my god, I was always a terrible sister."

I began sobbing. My dad stood up and pull me to my feet making me look him in the eye, "You weren't! You did the best you could! I'll be damnned if you try to blame yourself. We were a broken family, but that isn't what got your brother killed."

Nodding I just hugged my dad as I wept in his arms. When it rains it pours for me. First the fight with Colby and now I find this out. What else could I handle?

"I'm going to go lie down for awhile. You two stay in here, no matter how much you deny it you two are basically the same." My mother attempted to smile and she stood up and began walking to her and my dads bedroom.

I hadn't been alone with my dad in god knows how long. Normally we were yelling at each other, not embracing each other in the middle of the kitchen.

"What do you say I make us some coffee and we go set on the back patio and look at the stars like we used to kiddo?" My dad spoke softly.

"Sounds great," I let go of him, "I like my coffee-"

"Black, like your soul" he chuckled lightly.

"Still cracking them lame ass jokes I see."

He smiled at me as he poured our coffee in two cups. God mom was right. That's why dad and I never got along. We were so much alike we would but heads.

"Still acting like my cool ass is hip I see."

I literally face palmed while walking to the back patio, "No one says hip anymore you old fart!"

My dad sighed as we both sat down on the porch swing, "S'why I need you here. You gotta keep me young Nova. Your ma and I always had a kid in the house. You and then Gerard together and after you left we still had Gerard. I always told her Gerard would never leave us like you did. Honestly you way was more sincere."

"Dad, I'm sorry. I know I was hard to get along with. I was such a bitch, God I don't know how you put up with me for as long as you did-"

"Hey," he stopped me, "that was a long time ago. No need to apologize. The past is the past no need to be a pussy about it."

He took a big gulp of his coffee and I smiled. "I couldn't have said it better myself."

We sat in silence for about ten minutes just enjoying each other's company and looking at the stars. But I felt the need to make a choice. I had to it was hard, but I did.

"I'm not going back." I spoke still looking up.

"What do you mean?" My dad looked at me puzzled.

"WWE, I'm not going back. I've been looking for a reason to go. You're my reason. You and Ma need me."

"Sweetheart, you can't-"

"I am. Steph and I are close. She knows I haven't exactly been happy to be there since the John spilt, but I bet she'll find someone to take my spot. Wresting was Colby's dream, and apparently I don't need to be there because I'll just ruin it for him like I already did. So I'm going to call tomorrow and tell Steph I won't be back, my family needs me."

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An- sorry this chapter too so long to get up! But here it is!!(: