When The Flower Withers (Fleur Series #1)

Chapter 13

Kulang na lang maiyak ako sa sobrang inis at sama ng loob.

I didn't go to my next class after that. Sa unit namin ni Ara ako dumeretso at nagkulong sa kwarto ko. Naawa nga ako kay Mocha dahil sumunod pa siya sa akin kaso sinaraduhan ko lang siya ng pintuan. Well, that's the least thing I wanted to think about right now.

Ibinato ko ang bag sa couch at dumapa sa kama ko. Hindi na rin ako nag-abalang alisin ang sapatos.

Sobra talaga ang inis ko kay Ash! P'wede niya namang sabihin 'yong problema niya sa akin. I skipped my next classes for him and the only thing he would do in return was to pushed me away?!

Hindi ko gustong isumbat 'yon pero sana naman kasi nakisama siya. Gusto ko lang naman sabihin niya sa akin 'yong problema at totoo. Why was he acting that way all of a sudden? I thought he likes me?

Fuck. You don't do that to someone you like!

Bakit ang labas pa, parang ako 'yong naghahabol sa kaniya? 'Yong pag-aabala kong pumunta sa unit niya and to skipped my classes? Sa kaniya ko lang 'yon ginawa!

I really value my studies over guys... Tapos, 'yon lang ang gagawin niya sa akin? Papaalisin ako? Ni hindi man lang nag-thank you...

Ni isang beses, hindi man lang niya ako nagawang ngitian

Ni isang beses... Hindi niya ako nagawang tingnan sa kung paano niya ako tingnan noon.

His stares were cold and emotionless. He was so distant! Gano'n ba kalaki 'yong nagawa ko—kung meron man, para gawin niya 'yon sa akin?!

I heaved a deep sigh when I felt my chest tightened. Ilang beses kong ginawa 'yon para kumalma. Para maalis, somehow, sa isip ko 'yong ginawa ni Ash sa akin kanina.

I was really expecting he would run after me earlier and he would say sorry. I was expecting he would say he didn't mean it. I was expecting he would engulf me with his hug and say he was just joking.

But all the expectations I had on my mind were vanished when he didn't do one of the things I was expecting him to do.

'Wag mo na ulit gawin 'to kung gusto mo 'kong lumayo nang tuluyan sa 'yo.

"Ash... Pa'no kita gugustuhin lumayo nang tuluyan kung ginagawa mo 'to sa akin?" bulong ko sa sarili ko.

Kung nandito kaya siya... Gugustuhin ko bang marinig niya ang sinabi kong 'yan?

Gugustuhin ko bang malaman niya 'yong...

Totoo kong nararamdaman?

I had a hard getting that scenario out of my mind. Hindi ako lumabas ng kwarto kahit ilang beses na 'kong tinawag ni Ara para mag-dinner.

I buried the right side of my face on my pillow and stared blankly at my phone—hoping he would send me a message. I was still hoping he would say sorry... Kasi kung gagawin niya 'yon, hinding-hindi ako magda-dalawang isip na balikan siya sa unit niya para makipag-usap.

Pero ilang oras na ang lumipas, wala pa rin akong natataganggap na kahit anong message mula sa kaniya.

Gusto kong pagalitan ang sarili sa paghihintay... sa wala. Siya na nga ang may sabi kanina 'di ba? Kung gusto ko raw na tuluyan na siyang lumayo sa akin, 'wag ko na ulit gagawin 'yon.

Kaya bakit pa ako aasa na hahabulin niya ako?

"Baka may bago na 'yon... O baka ayaw niya na talaga sa akin," I mumbled at myself.

He doesn't like me anymore. Ara was right. He probably got tired of me and he finally realized that he doesn't have a chance on me. I was the one who wanted us to be in this situation anyway. I was the first one who asked him to stay away from me.