When The Flower Withers (Fleur Series #1)

Chapter 31

"I shouldn't have left you here alone. I'm sorry."

We were having our lunch when Adam said that. He was telling me—repeatedly, how guilty he was for leaving me alone. Well, I could've handled myself, if only he didn't show up... all of a sudden.

I passed out earlier. Thus, Adam was so worried of me... or he was just over reacting? When I woke up earlier, I was comfortably lying on the couch. I felt like I had been taken care off.

"I told you, I was fine. I am fine. It is normal to feel this way when it's that time of the month, okay?" I grinned at him. "Do you wanna switch places to convince yourself I'm really fine?"

"I'm fine by just taking care of you, you know?" He shook his head lightly. "But if only I could lessen the pain, I would."

"Hey," Niell interfered. His mouth was full of sauce. "You didn't copy that from me, did you? It's my job to lessen Mommy's pain."

"Couldn't it be my job too, young man?" he asked then wiped Niell's mouth with a table napkin.

Niell pouted. "You already have a lot of jobs, you're not even a hero. Besides, I can take care of Mommy way better than you."

Natawa ako sa sinabi ng anak ko. I tapped his head lightly. "That's my young man. Tell Adam to rest, too. He listens to you more he does to me."

When I looked at Adam, his ocean blue eyes twinkled in amusement. As if I said something that made his heart flutter. "Come on, are you still sulking about it? You know that it bothers me A LOT when I am not doing anything, right?"

"There's this thing called rest. Don't you have that in your vocabulary?" He scrunched his nose. "Sana all productive." Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko, naintindihan niya siguro since alam naman niya ang ibig sabihin ng 'sana all.'

Matapos namin mag-lunch, nanood lang kami ng movies sa kwarto ni Niell. Sa gitna namin siya ni Adam nakapwesto. There was no such thing as perfect for me until I saw Niell's smiles, until I heard his laugh, and the way he says he loves me.

The moment he wrapped his small fingers around my index finger when he was still a baby, I felt a different kind of happiness. A happiness I once felt before... with his father.

Bigla ko na namang naalala ang nangyari kanina. How did he know his name? How did he know we're living here? Did he ask one of my friends? Pero imposible, hindi naman sila magsasabi sa iba ng tungkol sa akin unless may permission mula sa 'kin.

I've already learned my lesson from Lindsey and Saddie. Those two! Whenever I was thinking about what they did to me, I couldn't help but to regret everything I've shared to them. I thought they were my real friends, turned out they're happy with my breakup with Ash.

I was just watching my friends and other people while they're having fun, while they're screaming on top of their lungs out of happiness. At some point, I couldn't help but to wish... I wish I still know how it feels like to be happy.

One week had passed since we let go of each other but every day, I felt like everything between us just happened yesterday. It was hard and painful but I was reminding myself that this was for him, for his happiness... For him to be free.

There were days I wanted to go to his unit... I wanted to tell him how much I miss everything about him—his face, his smile, the way his eyes smile every time he's laughing, his smell, the way he hugs me, the way he kisses me... the way he loves me, and his voice every time he sings; every time he tells me he loves me.

Suddenly, the enthusiasm we once gave to each other, turned into a lethargy...

Albeit he was in the same room, even if we were breathing the same air, there's already a thin line between us that we shouldn't crossed anymore... because he's no longer mine. We're already far away from each other.