Tum Pass Ho

Safe Zone!

Continuation from previous part:

Why can't that blood and gore stop coming out from her blood vassals doesn't it knows that it will cause deep wounds on her squishy arms and soles and Anirudh Roy Choudhry cannot bear even a single scratch on her, But this is how body organ functions, if they are skewered, they have to bleed and the reason behind this is me, then I must make a move to sooth her. No, No. I cannot do that. Dugga Ma! you know my dilemma so to compensate my doing give me the soreness of her wounds which she is enduring because of the piercing glass pieces spiked damaging her squishy skin, But I know she thinks this pain is nothing as compared to my words, denial of our relation made her heart bleed internally. She thought I left, but how can I, How can I just leave my Bondita twisting her heart with my harsh vocals, giving her immense pain being her beloved person, I know growing Bondita's rage what she did when Rani Vaibhavi devi came to our place but this time she did exactly opposite, instead of throwing the things away this time she started hurting herself, I was standing outside holding my sobs, clenching my fists hitting hard on the wall.....helpless, holding myself back there and after sometime her whimpering sound faded away in that darkness and my heart started throbbing inside my sweaty chest thinking she must have been fainted and when I was about to get in, I heard someone screaming deedee a! I gulped in fear thinking about her miserable condition but soon realized that the other person has rescued her. I thanked Dugga Ma! For sending an angle to save her and prayed to sooth those nasty gashes expeditiously. Ahh! It would have been more difficult for me to behave sanely around if I would have either seen her crying, full of sore countenance or her beautiful cheering face, adorned by the freely flowing silky mane that day in the court.

Alas! No surgeon will be able to stitch this incision on my heart served by that darkness this afternoon. I came outside coating a false smile on my dried lips and we established the Dugga Ma's sculpture back in its original place.

Since last 8 years either I found somewhat comfort in sharing things partially to Salim or if he is not available, that day Alcohol blushes as I will surely go to her and hers longings to gladden me, cheering me will be fulfilled. but Today when a long phone call with Salim failed to comfort me, Alcohol mounted on the wooden bar wall shelf deciphered that hers shoal attraction will fail to seduce me tonight.

Standing upright in front of the mini bar when glasses started laughing and turning partially red like someone's blood is making its way to floor due to gravity. I rushed discontinuing my imagination where my heart will find the solace. Yes!! That place where I have stored all the belongings and sweet memories of Bondita. Her laughter echoes there, I answer her numerous questions there which she used to ask in her childhood, Her dolls, her coconut shell telenoof, her white laced hanky, her books, bags, her dresses, framed pictures of her and our together, rail ticked everything which belongs to her, every small thing which has memory of Bondita, even her favourite Sindoordani all I have safeguarded here in this room with y unsend letters and named it as Bondita's Memory Mansion. Nobody is allowed to enter in this room, inching inside 10 meter of its periphery is prohibited for any insider or outsider. I spend whole night here with my Bondita, I confess everything to her here so, today with confession I apologized her giving those wounds to her. but today she didn't answer me, I guess she is angry on me and why shouldn't she...But I will not complain, because this is what I asked to her that she must not question me. She should not come to me, she too should discard any relation of ours just like I masterly fake acceptance of any relation between us.

I slept there on a plane sheet in one corner of my self made safe zone finally trying harder to shut these doors for forever tomorrow morning, because I know now she will never try to come to me, those wounds will remind her how ravenous l have become, who made his Bondita bleed, how dangerous he would be to others, surely these thoughts will overpower your love and you will move ahead for your perfect future life. I am extremely happy for you my love but I don't know how dangerously it will affect me, what I will do after losing this only chance to talk to your pictures at least, to feel your echoing smiles here, where I will unclog my unexpressed emotions and now I am feeling how someone's heart bleeds when a precious person whom do you love beyond any measure, more than your own life, their separation tugs at your heartstring.

I don't know when sleep engulfed me and next day when I woke up Kaka informed me that I have to go to Dinpur Railway Station to receive some girl who is south Indian and coming here to get the basic education from me so that she will get the suitable groom.

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