Lust & Desire.

Chapter Five

That morning I woke and realized I snuggled in his body because the cold wind gave me shivers. I do not remember who I hug so tight till he softly placed me back on the bed and covered me with the sheets. I did remember him walking to the door and softly closing it behind him. 

I did remember seeing black ink on his back. I just didn't think It was real. I was so comfortable. That was the first time I felt warm and cozy while sleeping in the coming monsoon season. 

I took it and realized I was supposed to buy some things for myself. I usually used what Emma did. But now I only had a bar of soap and a bottle of lotion which was running out of. I sat down on the small chair near my window and brushed my hair while remembering and writing down the things I will need. 

I was happy to have a job online for which I didn't need to go out and work for specific hours every weekend. 

Emma never let me pay for stuff I bought, So I had so much money saved up. I look at my hands and rubbed my thumb over the thin fabric of my knee-length dress. My fingers liking the ruffles at the end.  I wondered why she took me in. I was no one to her, She was just a friend of my mother. 

I sigh doing my bed and walking down. It was early, as I walked into the kitchen I made enough coffee for all four and some salad and sandwiches. 

"What are you doing this early?" I turn around but almost knocked out the glass of juice beside me as my body jumped at the distance between me and Theo. 

Or no distance that is. 

He caught the glass which happens to be near my waist over the counter behind me. I felt his forearm touch my waist as he pushed the glass back. His eyes were behind me while I was caught up in words. I finally cleared my throat and straightened my posture. 

"Break-"my voice cracked, "Breakfast" I continued. He stared at me for two seconds and moved to step right beside me and flipped the egg on the pan adjusting it. 

"I see" I nodded when I saw he was wearing a workout grey vest with joggers. I gulp moving a little back when I noticed a tattoo over his shoulder, it continued from the back and I almost felt myself close my legs. 

"what?" I blinked looking at him. He had black eyes. I hardly saw such a dark shade of eyes. 

"Um-Thank you for helping me" I murmured pouring coffee in two cups and cutting up the now toasted sandwich for him and me. 

"Does everyone wake up late on weekends?" He nodded. I figured he didn't like chatting so we sat on the dinner table as he turned on the TV, probably to fill in the awkward void. 

"Did you sleep well ?" That was an unexpected question that made me stumble to answer him yet again, "Uh-Yes. I did. Kinda" He rose his eyebrow and took a bite of his salad staring at me. I looked down tossing the cherry tomatoes on the plate. 

I wonder why he makes me feel like I am giving an interview in front of some very intimidating people. I felt like I was put on spot when I was with him. I felt like he would get angry if I slipped and said something wrong. I bite my lip taking my bite. 

"Kinda huh" He mummer making me look at him. 

"what?" He leaned back on his chair putting his hand on the head of the other chair beside him and sipped on his coffee. 

"So you didn't sleep that well? just Kinda?" I shook my head softly. 

"It was - um" How can I explain my thoughts to him? I just stammered like an ill-mannered girl. 

"It was warm. I was very comfortable" He nodded putting his glass down. 

"I am glad you were" I bite my lip staring at my plate as he walked to the counter to wash his plate as I finished my breakfast. 

"So you don't mind me sleeping next to you?" I snapped my head towards him and my eyes took in his gorgeous face. He was inches away from me and I was mesmerized by his eyes. 

"Uh-What, are you-" It was then figured out. He gave me a very slight smile as he leaned back and looked at me. 

I bite my lip but let my lip slid out my teeth. "And do you mind it?" I didn't wanna answer that question. I did mind, But at the same time, I really liked it. 

"I don't know" he hummed. 

"And did I make you uncomfortable?" I took my time, before shaking my head to indicate no. 

"Then did I make you feel like I was invading your personal space Primrose?" I felt my legs run together. "No, you didn't" He smiled. 

"Then You don't mind me doing that?" I blink twice. "No-" I whispered. But he sure heard it. As he smirked leaning down to press a kiss on my cheek. "Good," He said walking away. 

"Oh, morning," Alex said as they walked past each other, I heard Theo give him a soft greet before walking out the living. 

"Oh, I see my baby is awake" I could feel myself blush by this point. Because my neck felt hot. "Oh, You are blushing. Did I make you blush?" He laughed patting my head and grabbing some coffee. 

Kaden and Rex were still in bed while Theo went out for work, I walked down with my purse and an umbrella if it does rain. I was about to open the door when I heard Alex call me. 

"Where are you going?" I looked at him. "I need to get some things for myself. I'll get back soon" He folds his arms leaning on the wall. 

"Didn't my mom specifically ask you to take one of us before stepping out?" I felt like I was caught doing something bad. 

"Uh-I- I don't wanna give anyone trouble" He smiled walking up to me and patting my head. 

"I can't let you go out alone. Not just cause my mother told me to do so, But-" He looked at my dress, "I can't have any other guy staring at you if you wear that" He said. I look down at my knee-length dress. It wasn't that bad. 

"Um-is it bad?" I asked and he shook his head. 

"Nope, But not all guys are good are they? Wait here. I'll get my car keys" I watch him go to is room and I sigh opening the door and stepping out. The front porch was very simple. With a few lavenders planted. It took me a while to notice that the entire front yard was filled with lavender. And some were starting to bloom already. 

I smiled touching one of the bloom and loving it. 

"Like them?" I look at Alex and nodded and he chuckled but suddenly stopped smiling. 

"If you keep be so adorable I won't be able to stop myself" I stopped smiling and looked at him in confusion. He just laughed. My heart stopped as he rests his head on my shoulder. His lips touched my neck every so slightly. And when he pulled away, I felt my heart drop. 

What was wrong with me? Was it because I have never been near a guy before? I never talked or sta next to guy. It was so new to me. But I was confused for liking the way they hugged me or kissed me. I wondered how brothers act with their sisters. 

But I wasn't sure if I like what was happening or I was just startled.