Lust & Desire.

Chapter Sixteen

I didn't sleep well until Theo came in last night. All I could do was turn to him and let him hold me as my sleep kicked in fast. He was gone early on a Sunday, it made me sad. I really had not talked to him much. He was always quite.

I wished to at least spend a little time with him. But how can I come in between their priorities. I would be a nuisance.

I stayed in bed till noon. Finishing all my assignments and just laying in bed as everyone did their work. Or took their personal time on their day off.

Kaden was out with friends. Alex was out somewhere I didn't know. Rex was in his room playing. I made some quick mac and cheese and watched movies in the living room till I got bored as finally slammed my bedroom door close falling on the bed.

I didn't realise how I fell asleep again but I remembered grabbing the blanket and closing the windows.
I remembered how badly I wanted to plant some things in the bare backyard of this house. Make them happy maybe ?

I woke up feeling a bit foggy. My body now half on top of someone. My fingers resting over a bare skin as I finally open my eyes to see Alex.

I look up to see him watching something on YouTube.

"Good morning to you again" He softly said as I slightly sat up leaning on my elbow and rubbed my heavy eyes.

"Alex? When did you get back home?" I asked, a small yawn coming out my lips as he smiled brushing his fingers on my cheek.

"A while ago." I look at his bare body as I suddenly feel shivers run down my spine. My cheeks were definitely red as I tried to look away but in vain. But I slapped myself out of it.

Getting of bed and walking to my bathroom.

I look at the clock as I walked out, my heart doing a little jump at how long I was sleeping for, it was already seven. I slept at three.

How could someone sleep for that long?.

"It's seven?"I questioned myself. Earning a chuckle from Alex," oh yes, it is. I came back at five. I tried to wake you up but you were really sleeping like the dead"

I look at him shy, my lips holding back a smile at his correct statement, sitting on bed as he laid there. "Um, Alex ?" He kept his phone down putting one hand behind his head and the other tugging on my oversized hoodie to go back to him.

I couldn't deny. He was warm. And comfortable.

Slipping back in his arms as he kissed my head and ran his hands through my hair.

"I got a present for you" he said and I smile looking at him. Lightly sitting up again in excitement. " What is it ?" I ask a he lowers his hand to grab a bag from the floor near him and hands it to me.

My heart flutter at the pretty flowers in the bag. The box sitting in the end and a soft confused frown settled on me as I grab it still holding the flowers.

"I grabbed these from our neighbours. The lady was pruning her roses so she gave me some".

"They are really pretty. The colour, it's very pretty. But why did you buy me a phone? . I aready have a spare one." He rolled his eyes.

"It's a spare one. It's not yours. I already added all the numbers you may need in it. Including a work number of Theo and I. In case we can't pick our phones up"

I was happy. Really happy. But I just never received such gifts, I didn't know how to act. Emma did shower me with things. Like clothes. Or things a girl needs. But this was different. Somehow I felt spoiled already.

I couldn't bring myself to say a simple thankyou since I never received something I didn't really need. Especially flowers. Never flowers.

It made me feel special

I could only lean in to kiss his lips as a thankyou. I pulled back, nervous and a little disappointed with no reaction from him.

Maybe he didn't like the way I kissed him. Or Maybe he didn't want to be kissed right now ?

I lowered my gaze as I stare at the bed sheet, the crinkles over it now bothering me. When a sudden voice left my mouth in surprise as he wrapped his finger on my cheek kissing me.

It was wet, as his lips kissed mine, his teeth softly scraping on my lower lip, his tongue suddenly meeting mine making me jump and rest my hand over his neck very loosely.

I moan into this kiss in deep pleasure as he pulled me into him, something I didn't process quick. My eyes stayed closed as my lips moved against his but trying to keep up with his lips while he pulled me on his lap.

I wanted to touch more of him.

But my head suddenly felt light. My soft and fast breaths turning long and harsh a he pulled away, immediately putting his lips over my neck earning a loud moan from my throat and the intense feeling running from my neck, like tickles and feathers over my skin going down to my core.

I could feel myself getting aroused. Making me feel Wet.

"A-Alex" I called. His hand pushed my hair back causing me to softly tilt my head up.

I gasp, the loud voice yet again coming from me as he kissed my neck right near my collar bone.
I let him take my clothes off. My hair falling back on my shoulders as I gulp.

My hands pressed over his chest in a nervous state as I felt like I would melt like ice into water under his stare.

He didn't say anything, dipping his head down, and suddenly his lips touch my nipple from over my bra. My hands wrapped around his hair. My fingers pulling his hair ,unable to control these crazy feelings. He softly groans, his chest pressed on mine, I could somehow feel it vibrate against mine as he groaned.

"Alex-" I gasp as he took it between his teeth and pulled it. His hand unclipping my bra from behind. Taking the straps off. Only my nipples now covered.

He stared at me. His hodded eyes making me feel even more nervous.

"I-I" he kissed my cheek, his hand running through my back.

"It's alright. We don't have to have sex" my heart just did a flip.

"I just wanna kiss you baby" the way he called me baby this time make my stomach flutter. Everything he did made me feel shocks.

I just didn't want him to know. I wanted this. I needed him, he made me forget. He made me forget how I hated kisses and hugs and anyone touching me. They made me forget.

But I couldn't have him know. I couldn't have them all know. It would be the end of me.