What are you? // Pennywise x y/n

Chapter 35: you humans

"well" you start.
"Go on, I'll answer anything" he reassures.
"What are you?" Bit of a heavy one to ask as a start but you needed to know.
"Well" he smiles.
"I'm a...shape shifter"
"What?" You blurt, astonished, how.
"I am simply just not human, and I live on earth to feed...on humans...but I can hide among them when I don't need to be something to draw in what I feed on, for example pennywise"
"Pennywise?, is that that thing you were the other month?"
"Yes..." He nods.
"But how?"
"I just take forms of whatever I want or need to...I can shape shift for fun or if it's how I can get food"
"What is your food?"
"Human blood, and fear"
"I'm sorry, fear?" You ask, your face was twisted in confusion.
"When people fear me, it feeds me, like when you were scared...it was feeding me" he says, ashamed.
"What was that about, why were you even back in the house like that?"
"I had gone off to the sewers, which is where I stay as him...gross I know, but I got a scent of you from something...and it sent me home, and then that all happened"
"Is that why the sewers are dangerous?" You ask slightly concerned.
"Yes, because if you go down there and I am there as pennywise I could just kill you...without much thought" his face twists and turns through angry expressions as he speaks.
"Can you not control when you change or?"
"I can and I can't, if I want to I could force myself to change into it now...but of course why would I want to do so? And if I get too hungry, that will trigger the transformation automatically without my control"
You suck in a breath.
"Were you going to kill me?"
His face goes pale.
"Yes and no"
"What do you mean yes and no?" You ask, remaining calm.
"Well yes, I was really hungry because I couldn't eat food for a while because everytime I went to eat i would just see your face..." He looked so sad at that thought.
"Your fear didn't help me break out of it...but i held off when you started screaming my name"
He pauses, looking up at you from the floor.
"Go on" you encourage.
"I managed to break through after you passed out, and to start cleaning you up and fixing what I caused" he sounded distraught.
"And whats the no?"
"Well, you smell really good. Your fear is so refreshing" he says shamefully, holding his mouth and looking out of the window for a few seconds as if about to be sick.
"Do you plan on ever hurting me?"
"No, never...I want to protect you. I've grown a strong feeling..." He stares at you, not willing to continue. You had started to realise you liked him a few weeks ago. You really hoped that's what he was going to say.
"I have a strong, liking towards you" he starts, you feel your stomach twist in a knot. "I like you in a loving way" he nods.
"I like you too bill" you mumble, in shock.
"What was that?" He asks, standing up. His mood flicked like a light switch, making you jump.
You look up at him, he looked angry.
Your heart starts to go faster.
"Don't say you like me back, y/n" he shakes his head.
"Why can't I" you ask, agitated.
"Because I'm not even a human, are you crazy?" He raises his voice, speaking Through his teeth.
"Well I like you, and I can't help that. You like me and I'm a human so I could yell at you for that" you yell, glaring out of the window. He was making you nervous but you won't let him know.

He clears his throat and sits down.
"You know..." He starts.
You don't look back over at him.
"I've never felt such things, this isn't common for us shape shifters" he sighs into his hands, which are covering his face. He liked you.
"Listen to me y/n, I can't be risking hurting you"
You roll your eyes.
"Don't roll your eyes at me, look at me" he demands.
You look at him slowly.
"Do you really want to risk me hurting you?" He asks, seriously.
"Y-yes, because I trust you not to...I mean if I managed to snap you out of it once surely I can keep you from doing anything to me otherwise...right?" You ask, you have never felt safer around anyone so fast. You were willing to run a risk of being hurt, it was a common mistake but you felt you could.
He sits back in his chair and sighs.
"Well..." He thinks.