The Irresistible Introvert

Chapter 47 - Love me!!

🍁"Thank you for loving me,
When I still tasted of Heartache"🍁

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Bryce's P.O.V.

I sat next to him. Our arms were touching. Neither he moved away nor did I. Music playing downstairs could be easily heard. I just focused on breathing. Looking at Kyler's face was difficult. He was also silent.

"How have you been?", He broke the ice. I shifted in my place to face him. He was looking at his shoes.

"I'm fine. How have you been?", I asked. He looked lost. Hearing my question, he laughed sarcastically.

"Do you really want to know? Or are you just doing the formality?", He asked.

"I care about you. I really want to know", I replied. 

"To be honest, I'm not fine", he said. Looking up from his shoes, he looked right into my eyes. My breath stuck in my throat when I saw his eyes glistening.

"But I'm happy that you're doing okay", he added as he looked away. I saw him taking deep breaths through his mouth. Guilt consumes me from inside out.

"Why are you not fine?", I asked looking at him. My eyes were moist. My heart breaks for him. 

Don't you know? You're a certified bi**h, my mind replied.

"Because I missed you", He replied without even looking at me. He bites his lower lip and exhaled a deep breath. He was on verge of tearing up. A tear rolled down my cheeks. I wiped it away.

"Don't miss me", I said looking away. It's hard to face him.

I missed you too, I wanted to say.

"I tried. Trust me, I tried hard", he said and then he got up from the bed and walked to the balcony. He sat on the bench placed on the balcony. I followed him and stood behind him taking support of the door. His back was facing me. Kyler turned around giving me a view of his half face.

"What should I do Bryce? Tell me. I stay up most of the nights thinking of you trying not to think of you. I miss you while trying not to miss you. I tried to make myself busy with people, work and studies so that I don't have any time to think about you. But even when I'm super busy, you happened to be there with me in my thoughts", he said looking in the infinity.

I think of you too. You happen to be there in my mind as well.

"You're not trying hard", I said as my eyes welled up. He scoffed. He shifted in his position and his back faced me. I walked a few steps ahead and stood next to him.

"It hurts", Kyler said. He took a pause. I saw him rolling his tongue against his cheeks. He was vulnerable. He looked pitiful because of me.

"It's painful to have you in my heart and have feelings for you one sided but it's even more painful to not have you in my life. I tried dating so many girls. I kept looking for you in them. But I failed. No one looked at me the way you do" he said as he looked up at me. I could see the love in his eyes for me. That moment took me back to two months ago, where he proposed to me. He hasn't moved on.