The entire walk home, I talk to Phil on the phone. We talk about simple things like school, YouTube and cats. He says he plans to meet me this weekend. I don’t want to wait that long. It’s still only Monday. I complain about this too him and he jokingly tells me things like ‘stay strong’ or ‘you’ll get through it’. I can’t stop laughing, which is something that hasn’t happened in a while.
When I get home, I hang up on Phil and have a quick shower. I wash my hair and when I get out, I don’t bother straightening it.
I log onto Skype and add Phil using the username he texted me. I don’t call him yet though, I need to eat.
I go downstairs and see that my mum is still at work. I sigh. She might as well live there. She’d probably see me just as much as she does now anyway. I take out frozen berries, a banana, and some coconut water. I dump all the ingredients into the blender and turn it on. I hate the sound it makes. It’s so loud and annoying. After about 30 seconds, I turn it off and serve it into a large cup.
As I drink my horrible tasting smoothie, I plug in my earphones and play ‘Teenagers’ by My Chemical Romance. My fingers automatically tap against the table to the beat of the song as the music courses through my ears. I quickly glance down at my scars on my sleeve.
“It’s been a while.” I mumble as I roll down my long sleeves. They're never going away. I know that. But depression can go away. The depression was only living in me for a holiday. Their holiday is over. I’m okay and that’s okay.
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One in a Phillion (Phan Fiction)
FanfictionDan Howell is Phil Lester's biggest fan. All Dan ever does is watch AmazingPhil's videos. When Dan crosses paths with Phil, he begins to think that he's falling in love, and starts questioning his sexuality.
