One in a Phillion (Phan Fiction)

Chapter 11

I can’t tell him. He can’t think I’m gay. Am I gay? I’m not even sure myself. I’m still so confused. I open my laptop and go on google. I type in ‘how to know if you’re gay’. The first website I look through says, ‘You can never really tell who is and who isn’t gay. People say that when boys are gay, they wear colourful clothes, have high pitched voices and act girly but that’s all so stereotypical.’ It still don’t really understand so I click another website, ‘Straight people do have the occasional "same-sex fantasy": a woman having a strange dream involving a lesbian experience, or a man wondering about what it feels like to kiss that guy in the locker room. Just fantasizing or daydreaming, however, does not necessarily mean that you were responsible for the fantasy or welcomed it.’ I stop reading for a second and think; is this how I feel about Phil? I keep reading: ‘Were there people you were afraid to admit you had a crush on? Did you ever fantasize sexually about a member of the same sex? Did you find yourself consistently not attracted to the sex you thought you were supposed to be attracted to? If your romantic experiences with or fantasies about the same sex still leave you sexually excited, there's a good chance that you are either gay or bi.’ I turn off my laptop and lie in bed. What if I am gay? Will people hurt me more? Will Phil hurt me? No. Phil won’t hurt me. Phil’s my best friend… right? I know I haven’t known him long, but I wish I had. Even if he wasn’t AmazingPhil, I still want to be his best friend. The amount of subscribers he has doesn’t change how I feel about him. But is liking boys unnatural? Am I weird? Am I insane?

A/N ; This is kind of just a filler. Butt (intended) this info is actually off a website I found so it is real. (unless the website is talking shit) Just letting you know incase you were wondering. (σ≧▽≦)σ