Evil Twin (Eren X Fem Black Reader)

If I Did

TW:R@PE, MURDER, SUICIDE, AND SELF HARM
You'll learn a bit more about Y/N's past.
Eren POV:

     I woke up. I sat up. Connie was sleeping next to me. He had nothing on but his underwear. I started to panic and check myself. I had nothing on but my underwear on too. "CONNIE, WAKE YOUR ASS UP!" I yelled, pushing him off the bed. I looked around, we were in Y/N's room. "SHITT, WHAT THE FUCK E-" Connie said, pausing and eyes widening. "Wait did we..." he said, pointing at me. I remember Y/N knocking me out instantly came back to me. I don't remember anything else, but remember that."Oh thank God... we didn't." I said, clutching my chest.

Connie looked around. "Why are we in Y/N's room? And where is she?" he said looking around. I saw some clothes folded at the end of the bed. "I think these clothes are for us." I said, tossing Connie his set. As I got up I felt my migraine telling me to take my ass back to sleep. But I got up and put on the clothes. I saw water on the dresser, grabbed it, and headed to the living room. I saw Y/N, sleeping on the couch. I checked the clock in the living room. "11..." I whispered, rubbing my neck. Shit I gotta call Historia. I drank the water and walked towards Y/N. I looked for my phone around her.

The plan was to leave without saying anything. I was too embarrassed due to everything that happened. I don't even remember anything that happened but if she needed to knock me out, there's a good reason. I slowly uncovered her blanket to see if she had my phone on her personal. Her eyes fluttered open. "Mmmm~?" She groaned, looking at me and rubbing her eyes. " Where's my phone?" I asked. She uncovered herself completely, and grabbed the phone from her back pocket. "You still mad at me?" She said smirking a little.

I got up and went back to her room, ignoring her. She followed me into the room and went to the bathroom. "You gonna call Historia? I thought Connie said she doesn't know where y'all went last night." She said, grabbing clothes that looked like ours. "I don't remember anything from last night except that you attempted murder on me." I said, crossing my arms. She tossed us our clothes. Connie eyes widened. "EREEEEENNNNNN..." he said trying to keep himself from laughing but couldn't.

"What?" I asked, whipping my head around to Connie, who was looking at me wide eyed? "So, you don't remember SHIT from last night?" She said, putting her hand on her hip. I gave her a confused look then it all came back to me. "OHHHH SHIT." I said, dropping to the floor and covering my mouth. " Yeah." She said pissed off. Now I feel bad. She took good care of me last night, even after I made the whole group ghost her. I stood up and walked towards her. I hugged her but she didn't hug me back. "I'm sorry, Y/N... I don't even know how to properly apologize to you." I started. "I know I probably put you in a very uncomfortable situation last night, especially when I'm in a relationship." I said. She lightly pushed me off of her. "So I'm guessing this is another secret I gotta keep for you. Mkay." She said, patting her head and sitting on the bed.

"I'm also sorry for what I said that day. I had no idea about your father..." I said, rubbing the back of my neck. "Yeah... I had no idea about your mother ... or what happened to you either..." Connie added, hesitant. She rolled her eyes. "You guys, I'm fineeeee... now, while on of you muthafuckas make us breakfast, I'll answer all the questions you wanna know. And you'll answer all of my questions." She said heading to the kitchen.

Narrator POV:

    Eren started on your breakfast. He actually knew what he was doing. "Ok, I'm going first. Why didn't y'all tell Historia y'all went to the club?" You asked. "We told her we WANTED to go, but she didn't trust Eren enough to." Connie answered. "Hmmmm, I wonder why." You said sarcastically, sipping on orange juice. "Ok our turn... what happened when you got, y'know... r@ped. Was it an on going thing or..." Connie said, trying not to cross any lines. "It was an ongoing thing, I was like 8 at the time. He'd do it whenever he got angry at me and called it punishment. The first one who caught what was going on was my brother. He is not the most levelheaded person, as you can see, and he beat the shit out of him. He told my mom, but she didn't believe us. I don't think she wanted it to be true." You said. This is the first time you've told people outside of your family what happened. You were nervous, but it's not like you kept it a secret.

       "One day, my stepfather came into my room, yelled at me, and did it. I was fed up tho. There was a flower vase on the dresser. I grabbed it and hit him on the head with it. I got up and out of the bed. He pulled me back and tried to choke me, shoving himself back into me. I saw a knife after I moved the vase, I grabbed it..." you said, pausing it so you could drink. "And killed him." You finished. Connie looked at you wide eyed. Eren didn't seem surprised, and put the plates down on the table. "Okay, your turn." You said smiling. Connie's jaw dropped. "So Eren, do you even WANT to be in a relationship with Historia?" You asked.

      He turned around. Connie straightened up. " If we're being honest, no, I don't." Eren said, putting scrambled eggs and bacon (or whatever alternative for my Islamic people) on the plates. "Ok so- " Connie put a finger over your mouth. "Shhhh... it's my turn to ask. What happened after you killed him?" Connie said, moving his finger and leaning back.  You rolled your eyes. "I was wondering how that knife even got in my room until my brother came in. He hugged me and lifted me off and I cried. When my mom saw us in the room, she cried and ran. She locked herself in her room and didn't unlock it for days. The police came, cleaned it up, and told my mom the court date. Eventually when she did unlock it, I was the only one awake after I snuck from my brothers room. I went in and she had a gun in her mouth. Sh apologized for not believing me and killed herself, right in front of me." I said.

      Connie started tearing up. He reached for your left arm. You lightly pushed your hand away. It may sound cliche but you hated when people felt sorry for you. "Connie, I'm fine." You said, smiling brightly. You looked to Eren, who covered his face, trying to hide his tears. "Oh, my, God. Y'all stop." You said. They calmed down. "ANYWAAYYYY... Eren." You said, changing the subject. "There's no point in being with Historia then. It's not any different then when you weren't in a relationship." You said. " I've been staying faithful." He said, putting pancakes on the plates. Your mouth made a small O. "I've only slept with her after that night." He continued, refilling your orange juice. "I've done everything she's asked of me. Ive stayed away from other women that weren't in the group. I've stayed away from you. I've-" you put your finger up. "Hol up, Lightning McQueen... she's the reason y'all ghosted me for so long?" You said.

" Yeahhh... after a week we were gonna come apologize, we had a group meeting and everything. But she said she didn't want Eren to because she felt like he was being to nice to you and that you were lowkey interested in him." Connie explained. Your jaw dropped. "WOOWWWWWWW... SHES SO PETTTYYYYYYYY." You said laughing. "Well AREE you interested in Eren? Y'all seemed to get real close on the first day." Connie said, sipping his orange juice. Eren started eating standing up. "You should ask ya boy that." You said, turning your head towards Eren. Connie turned towards Eren too. You guys looked at him for a split second.

He looked up and leaned back. "She knows how I feel." He said, concentrating on his food. "Uhhhh... no I don't. You think that was enough to tell me?" You said, referring to the first night. "What is that?" Connie said leaning in. You and Eren looked at him. Eren sighed. "I fucked Mikasa on the first night I was with Historia. Then I tried to get Y/N I bed with us for a threesome but she declined." He said. "NIGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" Connie screeched putting his hands behind his head and standing up. Eren looked down. "NAWW. NAWW NIGGA YOU WILD." He said, pointing at him and giving him a stank face. He looked at you. "Did you know him and Historia were together? Did y'all kiss or something? Is that why you kept it a secret?" He asked.

      You drank your OJ. "I didn't think Eren was gonna come out and tell you like this, but since the cat's out the bag..." you started. "I knew him and Historia had something going on, but I didn't know they were dating till after, that's 1. 2, I didn't kiss him, he kissed me. I'm not telling you where. 3, Mikasa knew they were dating at the time. Eren told me to be quiet and I listened because I felt like everything was gonna come back and bite me in my ass." You said.

      "Damn... Y'all are messy." Connie said. "Naw, you in this too my nigga." You said turning to him. He turned to you. "No the fuck I'm NOT." He said, giving the 'bitch please' look. "Yes you are, since you kept pressing us so much to tell you." Eren replied. He looked at Eren, then to you, then back at Eren. "Wow. So a nigga caught up, huh?" He said, shaking his head. You assumed that this has happened before, due to the way Connie reacted. "But back to the original question, I'd feel bad for fucking you." He said bluntly. You and Connie gave each other a look and turned towards him. "Why would you feel bad, Eren?" Connie asked. "And you better answer correctly." You said. You thought he'd say something insulting or whorish. But he simply said...

     " You deserve a whole lot better than me. If I fucked you, I'd never let you go."