Who Are You?

Big Brothers? plleeaaassee?

hey guys!! so thank you so much for reading this! i really hope you all are liking it :D if you guys have any suggestions inbox them to me and ill see if i can finicky them into the story line :D anyway midterms are this week so wish me luck!!! :D

~Onyx

the last couple days have probably been the best of my life!! every day was something new and exciting! Ashley took me shopping at Hot Topic and bought me anything i even glanced at, we went to dinner and movies, he even took me walking on the beach one night and surprised me with a candle light picnic right there on the beacch!

Ashley and i even had sex for the first time that night! sorry he calls it "making love." i guess it is cus we've said we love each other. it was just what i thought it would be too. Ashley was patient with me and guided me through it and my breakdowns as the memories flodded back.

it was the most magical night of my life! ive decided that that monster doesnt get to have my virginity, Ashley was my first time, not him.

toady we were at the recording studio working on their new album. i helped whenever i could and the guys kept tricking me into singing for them. every time i would they would praise me and try to get me to sing some more.

"you really are a great singer Zara!" CC insisted

"you need to sing more, your family are all jerks for what they did but i promise they were wrong baby" Ashley said

"their right Zara." John said from the soundboard "i barely had to touch this thing at all while you were singing, you're a natural and you should do something with that voice. every time we see you singing you're so happy and smiling. its what you love"

"thanks guys, really but its not something i want to do right now alright?" i snapped at them as my control broke. they all just stared at me with blank faces. i let out a breath i had been holding and said "look im sorry, i shouldnt have snapped at you guys like that, its just that it wasnt just my parents who said all that stuff"

"who else said something?" Jake asked with scrunched eyebrows

"can we just not talk about it?" i asked as i escaped the back room to the front of the studio on my way to the restroom.

"Zara! wait!" Ashley called me from behind but i ignored him and kept on walking to the bathroom feeling the tears about to fall

"Zara you turn around right now and talk to me" he commanded in that voice of his. it made me stop with one hand on the door to the ladies room

i knew if i didnt turn around right now he would put me over his knee right here and now. he didnt care who else was around. so i slowly turned around to face him with shaking knees.

"yes Ashley?" i asked my voice wavering

his face cleared of anger and was smoothed out to reveal concern. he opened his arms wide and i ran into them. he wrapped them tightly around me. i buried my head in his chest so he wouldnt see me tears and breathed in his cologne and wood smell.

Ash rubbed his hands up and down my back and cooed in my ear to calm me down. finally my sobs calmed and i was left with runny makeup and red puffy eyes to match. i whiped them and looked up and him and said "sorry"

"its alright, just dont walk away from me again. when i call you i expect you to turn around and face me is that understood?" he asked sternly

i nodded quickly

"alright then, now would you like to talk about it?" he asked gently again

"not really but i guess you deserve to know since i ruined your shirt" i said as i gestured to his salt water stained shirt