Who Are You?

Waking Up

hey guys!!! the bold plus options reappeared!!! yay!! anyway i hope you all enjoyed the last chapter! :D

~Onyx

Zaras POV:

i rolled over to the sunlight blaring in my face and smiled at the sight. then i realized what had happened last night and flopped back onto the pillows and hid in them and the blankets...wait...blanket? pillows?

"what the heck!?" i screamed and i heard feet pounding towards me. i quickly got out of the bed and hid underneath it trying not to whimper in fear.

where was i?! who was coming to get me!!? was it i HIM again??!!

"Zara?" a voice asked above me

huh? who was that.....

"little Zara...where are you?" the voice asked again

and then it all came back to me! i had followed Ash out of the club and then that ass had grabbed me again and raped me but Ash saved me and beat him unconscious! the jerk was in jail!!!

i squirmed out from under the bed and peaked up over the mattress to look at Ash who was standing in the doorway looking around for me

he glanced my way and started laughing at me but i just knee-led there and looked at him.

"hiding are we?" he said between giggles

"yes, i thought you were him..." i trailed off

Ash immediately sobered up and walked around the bed towards me and kneeled down next to me. he didn't touch me but he held his arms out. i crawled into his arms and curled myself into a ball as he gently wrapped his arms around my trembling body as i recalled what happened last night...

"I-I just cant believe it Ash...he did it again and i c-c-couldn't stop him...." i stuttered as the tears started the slide down my cheeks

Ash pulled away and cupped my face between his hands, rough from playing bass for years, and wiped my tears away with his thumbs. he looked me deep in the eyes and asked sadly "Zara, answer me this alright? do you honestly blame yourself for what happened?"

i nodded as more tears brimmed in my eyes but Ash wouldn't let me turn away from him this time. he held me there gently but firmly as he continued "now listen to me little Zara, what happened to you was not your fault alright? it wasn't. it was that jerk, but hes gone now. he locked up tight behind bars where he belongs. it wasn't your fault. you did the only thing you could."

"what did i do that w-was actually right Ash?" i asked

"you survived sweetie. that's the thing I'm most proud of you for doing. you survived and your here now" he answered sweetly

"b-but he took something i cant e-ever get back Ashley....no matter how much i try its never going to come back...." i trailed off before i said something i shouldn't have

Ash just looked at me confused for a few seconds. since he still held my face captive i couldn't look away from him so i got what i was saying without even saying it because he was just so good at reading me. and then his eyes widened and he gasped

"....Z-Z-Zara? what did he take f-from y-you?" he asked seriously

i couldn't look away from him as much as i wanted to. no one knew this part of it, not Andy or CC and definitely not Ashley...the person i never wanted to find out in the first place

"Zara....this is important...please tell me?" he pleaded

"Ashley...he took everything from me, he took my self esteem, my self worth, everything i thought was good about me he took" i told him.