One Day After School

15: Sino

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Chapter 15: Sino

I thought things are getting better, akala ko lang pala.

I was so close into believing that everything will be fine, that I can finally become genuinely happy. Hindi naman ata mahirap ang hiling ko, 'di ba? Gusto ko lang naman maging masaya, bakit parang ang hirap-hirap no'n?

I can feel my chest tightening as my eyes are getting blurry.

Is my Dad cheating?

So this is the feeling of betrayal. It sucks, it makes me weak, angry, and frustrated. Am I just overthinking things?

Is my Dad really cheating with Yuan's Mom?

"W-why...?" That came out as a whisper.

Why, Lord? How can you do this to me? The only person who gives me hope, whom makes me continue living is making me want to die

H-how?... How can he do this?

I... I thought he loves my Mom so much. I thought that that's why he can't defend me because he's afraid to hurt my Mom in any way. Are all of those are act? Is my Mom not enough?

So, he's been cheating all along? Since when?

“Solana? Anak...” Dumbfounded as he may seem, regrets are nowhere in his eyes.

They say eyes are the window to our souls, it plaster the real emotions we feel deep inside, it shows people who we are and what we feel.

Eyes can't lie...

I watched how the little girl hugged his left foot, clinging into him like a koala. She's wearing a sweet smile, looking at him like he's her sun. It's the kind of smile we wear when we were kids. I can feel my chest clenching in pain with that sight, I feel betrayed.

Ah, so they're playing picture perfect family.

The woman can't stare at me, she's biting her lips, trying to find the right words to say. I know I looked pathetic right now, but I stared at them with a question lingering in my mind. 

Ate... Bakit naging ganito?

As tears started forming on the corner of my eyes, someone grabbed my left arm and dragged me out there. I can feel the anger started creeping in my heart. I balled my hands and clenched my fist tightly, it seems like I'm out of my mind. Hindi ako mapakali, the overwhelming feeling frustrates me.

Kailan pa? Kailan pa nila iyon ginagawa? Iyon bang mga out of town na trabaho niya ay palusot lang pero ang totoo'y nasa ibang pamilya niya lang pala siya, nakikipaglandian at nakikipagkulitan sa niya anak sa labas?

He never even called me sweetheart in a long time! Pero pag sa kaniya parang sanay-sanay ah.

Putangina.

Ano bang nagawa ko sa mundo, ha?! Bakit ba ako pinaparusahan ng ganito? Palagi na lang. Everytime na akala ko nagiging maayos at masaya na ako, bigla-bigla na lang binabawi.

TANGINA!

Gusto ko lang naman maging masaya... Mahirap ba yo'n?

No, no, no, I shook my head furiously. Hindi ko sila hahayaang makawala na lang basta-basta.

I pulled my arms away from Yuan's grip and ran back towards them. Hindi na ako nakapagtimpi at walang sabi-sabing sinampal ang babae niya bago siya hinampas ng dala-dala kong isang cellophane ng mga mineral water. Hindi na sila nakapalag sa bilis ng pangyayari at namalayan na lang nila na nadapa na ang anak nila't umiiyak dahil nagasgasan ata ang tuhod. Deserve nila 'yon.