Celestial Wulf Chronicles Book# 5 Sacrifice's

Dark Past

 Celestra's wulf spoken tone is defiant. Her wulf spectral knives were pressing closer to the ancient Seers throat, heart, back, and chest. "I cannot allow you to relive that pain, sister. What you did......... to save us......to save your sons. I will not allow it!"

I listen, stunned, unable to say anything. Celestra's wulf speak held so much pain. Toti's carried profound shame. What took place? Celestra, for the first time, is refusing to back down. I look to Crimson, confused, "Do you know why they are behaving like this?" My confused tone irritates Crim, and he reacts.

Alejandro speaks with confusion. The concern for his mother in his eyes, one I promised he would never face again. "THIS I WILL NOT ALLOW!" Snapping my head, I leer to her, "Release him, Celestra. Alejandro is uneasy and confused, and THAT; I will never allow. Is it so dark you would risk my rage, sister?"

Her response stuns me. One I did not prepare for, causing me to halt in my anger, "For this one time, I must my Alpha. Kill me if you must, but I will take him with me to save my sister her pain."

Appearing, surrounding him within a wulfen pin cushion, Spectral knives press to the ancient wulf. Estrella grows furious, " I see them all trying to protect Alejandro in separate ways, Cary. Celestra the most of the two, Celestra's swore an oath to protect my secret. Cary, this ends. You may contain shame of deeds! I. do not!" Without a second thought, I blurt it out, "ALEJANDRO!! IT WAS I WHO KILLED YOUR FATHER!! MY DESTINED MATE DIED BY MY JAWS. NOT CELESTRA'S!" Everyone stops, stunned eyes snap, towards me.

Even though she is stoic, Celestra remains stunned. "SISTER, WHY?" Closing her eyelids, Celestra turns her head away, lowering it. A slight whimper. One word escapes her, "My Alpha." Her spectral wulf knives slowly fade. Crimson also halts, unable to believe what he just heard. Alejandro stares at me wide-eyed, stock still for what seemed like forever; "this was not... Not how I wanted to tell you." I relive my pain-opening wound from so long ago. My sullen wulf speak relives that day.

"A mate is a gift from our Goddess, and I killed him. He told me in a private wulf speak unless I left with him, he would kill you. How does a mother tell her cub their father swore to kill him because he judged him weak for his preference? I chose my son over his father, over the mate bond, the very force that can kill you or strengthen you. How do I tell both my blood nurtured sons...."

Turning my head, Randall's own gaze to me further pushes me to lower my head, "They have always been the strength which pulled out of my depth of despair. How his amnesia gave me the power to save both myself from mental anguish and remain sane for him & his brother? How sass and laughter of my eldest son, Became my sunlight and my foundation within sanity. Because of my mate, My core had become; my family. My sons Randall & Alejandro rivaled the mate bond. How do I tell two very reasons I breathe? They save me from insanity?"

Dropping my head low, my eyes close. I can't meet Alejandro's sight. I am broken; again. Alejandro approaches whining. Everyone else watches, silently stunned, not moving.

"Mom." My heart sank, feeling the depth of her pain. "Oh, Goddess, how could they have lived with this?" It was not the act of what she did that made my heart sink. I feel genuine sympathy for my mother of WHOM she killed protecting my brother and me. "Her mate. The one being who can cause a wulf to go insane, living in torment until, at last, death's sweet relief comes. Mother, for all these years, has always been a mother first. The years of agony she has endured quietly. Only Carmen knew this pain. Now I understand why Carmen did not want her to relive her pain. MOTHER KILLED FATHER." I want to understand this; I must know why. As much as I did not want to cause her more pain, I could not understand and wanted to know.

Shifting my gaze to her, "So much misery." Toti meets mine. Watching, then mother lays down, resting her head on her paws. For a moment, turning her head, she purposely avoids meeting my gaze. "Mother, why?" At my question, mother lifts her head to me, then rises fully. She then sits on her haunches before beginning.

My mother's Wulf Speak returns sadness. Yet, she reveals her heinous act. "The day you discovered who was behind rogue attacks and orchestrated it. It was the very same day you challenged and defeated him for the title of Alpha for our pack. It was as you were banishing him. Your father spoke to me privately via wulf speak, "Estrella, meet me tonight by the river, leave with me." My response to him was simple. "NO. You attempted to kill our son. How could you ever expect me to love you knowing this?" what he said next shattered my hopes of him ever seeing and accepting you for who you truly are. His words confirmed my vision of what I would do; What would signify his fate. His blinded pride held no limits to the depth of depravity of brutality he would commit. Such was his resolve "Because I am your mate. Because it is our BOND that COMPELS YOU TO BE WITH ME. Because I WILL KILL HIM if you don't join me!" I remember it like it was yesterday.

Eduardo scoffed as he continued, "HE, this gay one, this weakling would become Alpha, I am to beg forgiveness? To one who is a source of HUMILIATION FOR US ALL!! I CHOOSE DEATH BEFORE SERVING THAT WHICH IS NO SON OF MINE!! HE IS A DISGRACE, A DISHONOR, A STAIN, AN INSULT! HOW COULD YOU LOVE SUCH AN ABOMINATION TO THE GODDESS!! NONE OF THE OTHER PACKS WILL RESPECT US WITH A GAY Alpha! SUCH DISGUST, DISHONOR. I WOULD RATHER SEE HIM DEAD, ESTRELLA. COME WITH ME, ESTRELLA, OR WATCH HIM DIE IN HIS SLEEP BECAUSE I WILL HAVE RIPPED OUT HIS THROAT!!"

His response chilled me to bone. Eduardo's despise, loathing, and hatred oozed in his Wulf Speak. Because of your preference, your grandfather, my father, passed on his element to you, Alejandro, and not Eduardo as he wanted. I knew Eduardo would commit this heinous spoken act. He made my choice. I agreed to meet him at the river boundaries of our territory and leave with him. Carmen, like Belladonna, is capable of hearing others wulf speak. When I looked at Carmen, I knew. She heard everything.

That night, as planned, I went to meet him. My vision had already shown me an inevitable outcome, but even so, I went. It was also on this night, Carmen indeed proved her legendary title, "Lightning Death Beta." She remained hidden but trailed noiselessly in the darkness close to me, killing the scouts that sought to make sure I was alone. Before they even knew she was there, she was upon them. Dispatching them ominously, effortlessly by pouncing in human form, on their necks from behind, snapping it. Not once did any have time to warn another, Or your father.

When I arrived, your father was talking with a few of his rogues. Those who had aligned themselves with him, agreeing with your father's notion that a legendary pack would be disgraced with a gay Alpha. I growled at them, and they immediately bowed their heads, backing away from us quickly. However, that simple maternal act from me in that instant gave your father my genuine response, and he faced me fully. His eyes crazed with fury, showing their fiery copper glare. Bloodlust.

Ishall forever remember his words.