Bungou Stray Dogs Oneshots

Euphoria

Time.
Stopped.

Everything.
Was clear.

He could see everything.
The shattered glass.
The expressions of fear and surprise and concern

He could hear everything.
The wind rushing through his ears.
The yells of the people around.

He could feel everything.
The pain in his back from the glass slicing his skin.
The adrenaline rushing through his veins.

There were moments before moments, in which the world was framed in startling clarity, a defined before hurtling toward a horrible after. Moments in which the powerful become powerless, in which promises became failings.

This was such a moment.

And suddenly everything moved in fast motion.
His pulse quickened.
His breaths came in gasps.

And then he was falling
                                                falling
                                                             falling.
                                   down
                                                down
                                                            down.

The sky was stretched above him, turned from an untainted blue to a clouded, coarse blanket.

How fitting .
For someone like me.

He smiled.

He could still hear Atsushi screaming his name, see Kunikida being held back from jumping after him as others rushed down stairs, racing with time and gravity.

How funny.
Even that Hat-rack can't save me now.

And in that moment.
After acceptance.
Came crippling understanding.

No.
I don't want to die.
I want to live.

Dazai remembered.
Everything.

Teaching Atsushi.
Badgering Kunikida.
Debating with Ranpo.
Playing around with Kenji and Kyouka.
Conversations with the Tanizaki siblings.
The respect and gratitude he owed the President.
Arguing with Chuuya.
Coffee at Uzumaki Cafe with the pretty waitress and the owner whose hands always smelled of coffee.

Seeing kids smile.
People laugh.

The rain in autumn.
Flower-viewing in spring.
The heat in summer.
Festivals in winter.

And memories.
Of a special friend.

Odasaku.

His eyes widened.
He could feel tears, salty and pure flowing from his eyes, suspended in air.

There is so much to live for.

In a single frenzied moment, he stretched out a hand, reaching desperately for something, anything, to stop his descent.

But he was falling.
And there was nothing.

And in that stifling second, he crashed to the ground, air blasted out of his lungs.

Blood.
Pain.
I don't like pain.

And then all was dark.

Hey ppl ^^

Nice to see y'all again

Who else is in the middle of holidays?

[me]

[if y'all wanna skip this part, go ahead - this is just smth I wanted to tell you]

This is definitely the most depressing scene I've written since... ever, and I'm sorry if you guys are feeling actual pain bc of it [dw - it felt the pain while writing and am still grumpy abt it]

A note about the sixth paragraph there: I borrowed that from 'We Free The Stars' by Hafza Faizal - while I was writing this scene, that part came to mind and I thought that it was perfect to use - ofc it makes sense without that part, but I added it in for the feels
If you want, you can read her works - they're very good

This is not like the one shots that I've been writing so far [ I have two coming up ^^]

Now the inspiration, where did that come from?
Well, yesterday I was thinking abt the BSD manga and when it would next update and I suddenly wondered:

What if Dazai died?

And I thought: No way is that going to happen - the whole point of it is to find a reason to live [as someone told me]

And while thinking abt that, I also thought abt the part in Beast where Dazai dies [sorry if that was spoiler >//<]

And then it hit me

The perfect way for Dazai to die in the main story manga

I didn't think of it as words - I very literally saw the panel, where he falls from a building.

I could envision perfectly the expression he made and what was running through his mind and the others

It hurt so much

[Asagiri-san, I award you and Oscar for the most painful amount of feels I've ever had]

And so was born this scene

Oh, if you want, I could write a Part two to this, one which includes Reader-chan

If you do want to see the Part two, please let me know in the comments

Thanks for reading and for the support you give me

See ya ^^