Completely Yours [COMPLETED, 18+]

Chapter 21

This is the third box of Kleenex's that I've gone through so far. We had to go to Walmart to buy more just because I used all of them up. I had the habit of crying both incessantly and randomly out of nowhere. I had no shame crying in public. My snotty nose required a constant supply of Kleenex's.

Emma gives me a concerned look and puts her hand over mine. "Mer, it's been two weeks and you're still crying just as much as you were in the beginning. This isn't healthy."

"I-I can't help it," I shudder. "I lost the love of my life. The love of my life cheated on me, and I lost him forever."

Emma looks at me sympathetically. She draws the blanket over my body and puts her hand up to my forehead. "It looks like the fever broke."

I got sick a couple days after Axel and I broke up. I think it was my body's way of coping with everything. My body just shut down because it couldn't handle anymore. I was crashing at Emma and Nick's place for the time being while I tried to sort out my living situation.

"Maybe I could've forgiven him if he had confessed to sleeping with her. But he lied, and I can't be with someone who isn't truthful. I can't be with someone who doesn't respect me. I never thought Axel would be the one to hurt me the most in my life, but here we are. I feel like such an idiot. I dove in way too deep with him. I'm in love with him. I'm always going to be in love with him."

Emma sighs. "No you won't. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but you will move on. And Axel won't be on your mind ever again. You just need to take more time to heal."

At that, I roll over on the couch and curl up into a ball. I'm going to nap my problems away. Emma sighs quietly and walks away. More tears slip down my cheeks. I debate calling him. What would I even say to him?

I miss you. That would be first. Why did you do this to us? That would be second. I imagine him going to work every day past Molly, knowingly having fucked her while we were together. They work together for gods sake. It was embarrassing.

I knew I wasn't good looking enough for him. I partly blamed myself for not being able fo keep him in my life. For not being able to keep him interested. What was wrong with me?

The doorbell rings and Emma calls out to me. "Mer, you have a visitor."

My heart jolts because for a crazy second I think that's Axel coming to apologize. How could he let me go so easily? Was everything he told me a lie to get me into bed? He probably didn't even want to marry me one day.

I look up at the sound of footsteps and wipe my tears off my cheeks. It's Sam.

"Hey Mer," he says. The man walks in front of the couch and sits next to me. "I came here to talk to you."

I sniffle. "Is this about your birthday party because I swear I won't come. I don't want to make things awkward there."

"What? No! Of course you have to come. And you never know, it might be good for you two to see each other." He pauses, then says, "He really misses you."

My heart pangs as my body yearns for the man. I want to hear him laugh again. Smile at me. Kiss me like he means it. "Well he should've thought about me before he slept with that woman."

Sam sighs. "I thought you might say something like that. Meredith, have you ever given thought to the fact you just decided to leave Axel? You dropped him out of the blue."

I gasp. "I dropped him out of the blue? Try finding out that he slept with someone else out of the blue!" I exclaim, tears running down my face all the while.

I cross my legs and sit up on the couch, facing Sam. He speaks. "Mer, you don't even have any proof that he did that."

"I don't need proof. I know," I tell him.