//soulmates\\ karlnap

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We were back at the house, Myla was in my arms as we opened people's gifts. There were a lot of diapers and other essentials, but the last gift was from everyone. It was a brown stuffed animal bunny that was very soft, I took Myla's small hand and ran it over the fabric. She immediately latched on. "You like it?" I asked quietly, laughing as she wrapped her hand around Nick's fingers.

Me and Nick took her down to the water and I sat in the sand with her, an umbrella over us. She was only wearing her diaper and a green bucket hat. Nick picked her up and touched her toes into the water. Her back was to me but when Nick turned her around, there was a smile on her face. "She likes it."

"Babies aren't supposed to smile until like, six months." I laughed and got up, tickling her stomach.

"She must like the water then." Nick beamed and brought her back to the shade.

Breastfeeding in public was the worst thing ever, I was stared at by a tourist as I took my boob out of my tank top. I hadn't been wearing bras, it was terrible but great at the same time. "Hurry up." I looked up at the umbrella. Nick stood in front of me, blocking the vision of the guy staring at me, interested.

"Hey, you're staring at my husband." He yelled.

"Nice tits."

Nick flipped them off and covered me all the way with a flowery towel. "Sorry, gorgeous." He sighed and rubbed my back.

I took a picture of Myla cradled in Nick's arms as he scrunched his nose at the phone. "I want to buy a real camera." I stated, sitting down next to him and resting my head on his shoulder.

"Why?"

"I don't know, then we can look back at the pictures and they'll never be deleted." I snatched Myla, kissing her infant forehead. "I love her eyes."

"They look like eyes of ender."

"What's that?"

He pulled up a picture and we had a thirty minute conversation about Minecraft. We took exactly one break while walking up the stairs. Myla was in one of those baby carrier things on Nick's chest, it was Sophie's old one she 'just happened to save'. "I'm going to run to the store, do you need anything?"

"Your taking her?" I asked, putting socks on Myla as she looked at me with wide, confused eyes.

He nodded and put a pacifier in her mouth. "Is that okay?"

"It's perfect, actually."

He smiled and kissed my lips before taking her out, closing the room door behind him. I kicked off my flip flops next to my converse that have been untouched for seven months, Nick said I should get rid of them and buy a new pair but I refused. I laid down in bed in short shorts and a bra, pulling the white sheet up over me and closing my eyes.

I woke up seven hours later. I got up out of bed, feeling the best I've felt in awhile. I found Nick at the water, Myla had on her hat and sunglasses, along with a yellow dress with white polka dots. "Hey." Nick greeted, snaking his arm around my waist and pressing multiple kissed into the top of my head. "How did you sleep?"

"Amazingly." I laughed and tilted my head to the side, kissing him passionately.

"Shit, okay." He laughed and pulled back. I fluttered my eyes open and tilted my head to the side. "You're doing the thing." Nick said.

"What thing?"

"The cute head tilt thing."

My cheeks flushed and I put my head back up straight. "Shut up."

Feeding Myla was a struggle, she always either turned her head away or wouldn't open her mouth. "Cmon, bugsie." Nick tried. She wailed and Nick stopped, picking her up and patting her back. "Okay, okay. I'm sorry, we won't do it anymore."

I laughed quietly and kissed Nick's shoulder. "We'll try again later, maybe she just doesn't like it."

He scrunched up his nose as Myla calmed down, starting to rub her back instead.

Me and Nick both woke up at one to Myla crying. I groaned and took her from Nick, taking off my shirt and turning on the light Nick installed above the headboard. It took a minute for my eyes to adjust but when they did I put my hand on the back of Myla's head and felt her mouth latch onto my nipple. I closed my eyes and laid back, switching her from one to the other after about fifteen minutes. "So sexy." Nick stated from next to me.

I laughed sleepily. "You next."

"Yes please." I could hear the smile in his voice.

"It's too early for your BS." I said but after Nick put her back in her crib and I turned out the light, I snuggled into Nick's chest. He'd learned to deal with my still showing baby bump, moving his hips back so I could curl into him. He massaged my still showing chest, my tank top was tangled in between our legs now. "Why would you ever stop doing that?" I asked, opening my eyes to see Nick's closed ones, I listened to his soft breaths before falling asleep quickly.

I woke up when Nick started kissing my ear, nipping at the top a little. "Good morning, gorgeous."

"Good morning?" I said sleepily, hiding my face in the pillow.

"My moms coming over and you don't have a top on or shorts." He said calmly. "Can you sit up real quick?"

When I finally did he put a shirt on me and somehow managed to slip shorts on me as well. His mom came in a few seconds after I was changed and lying back down, facing out the window. "There she is." Sophie said quietly. "I can't get enough of her blue eyes."

"That's what Karl was saying yesterday."

I fell back asleep as Sophie was telling Nick that he shouldn't be feeding Myla baby food, that breastfeeding is enough and baby food could be dangerous to Myla.

Two hours later I was up again and breastfeeding Myla and then lying down again. "What's up?" Nick asked quietly, running his fingernails up and down my now exposed side.

"What do you mean?" I looked up at him.

"I don't know you just seem a little down."

"Sorry."

He grabbed my hand and ran his thumb in a circle motion over the back of my hand. "Don't ever be sorry for something like that." He kissed my nose.

I smiled and kissed him, when I pulled back I looked at the wedding ring on his finger. It was a simple gold band but on the inside it said N + K. "I'm happy you proposed to me."

"Why's that?"

"Because now you are my husband." I stated, looking at my two rings, the engagement ring and the wedding ring. "How come I get two and you only get one?"

He shrugged. "Because you're special."

"-you can use the bottle and breastfeed." Sophie said with a smile, handing me the bottle of formula.

I looked at Nick, trying to pick my jaw up off the floor. "I've been breastfeeding that demon when I could've just stuck a bottle in her mouth?"

Nick nudged me. "At least we know now so you didn't have to breastfeed her only for like three more years." I nodded and carried Myla over to the changing table, taking off her pooped-in diaper and replacing it with a new one. "Thank you, mom." Nick kissed her cheek. "Are we still doing dinner tomorrow."

Sophie nodded and hugged him. "See you then."

"Bye, thank you." I smiled and she squeezed my hand while walking by.

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