Linstead- Love Me Until The End

Chapter 8

JAY'S POV

It's been a few weeks since Voight shared his news with us and Erin hasn't been sleeping well due to stress I would guess. I am guessing because she has been pretty quiet lately and is always "fine" when I question her. I've been trying to help out with Aiden as much as I can to alleviate some stress for her but it is also wearing on me. 

"Er? You almost ready?" No response so I walked towards the bathroom to see her scrolling on her phone. She has been obsessively researching everything to know about prostate cancer lately. "Huh? Did you say something?" She says when she sees me curiously watching her.

"Are you ready to go? We're going to be late, Layla is here to watch Aiden." Her eye widen as she looked at the time. "Crap, you're right. Lets take two cars today because I have that appointment with Hank this afternoon, ok?" I nodded even though I had prior arrangements. I kissed her and grabbed my gun from the safe. 

"Layla, would you mind staying until 6 tonight? I have somewhere to be and Erin has an appointment." I really had no clue if she would accommodate us like this last minute but all I could do was ask. "Sure, that's no problem! We will be fine here." I thanked her and kissed Aiden's chubby cheeks before heading out the door. 

ERIN'S POV

I'm not sure where Jay is going after work and why he never told me that he had plans this afternoon. Actually when I think about it, he's been randomly leaving work too. Am I that blind not to notice he's stepping out on me? Am I overreacting? Of course I am, that's who I am.

"So Mr. Voight, your blood work is still on the fence and is not where we need it to be. In the mean time I would like you to start this medication, one pill in the morning to help your urinary symptoms. Also, to get a clearer picture of what this is, we will need to get a biopsy of the prostate tissue. That will give us a definitive answer if this is cancer or an issue with the prostate gland which can be treated with medication." The doctor blurted out all while typing on his tablet.

"Ok, so when can we get him scheduled for that procedure? Dad, you want that procedure right? And when are we going to review the MRI results?" I needed to know everything. I knew too much from wikipedia and wanted to throw Hank under the scalpel now if I could. 

"They will get you scheduled at the front desk but it looks like I have some time at the end of the week. We will go over the MRI results along with the biopsy results. Make sure you stop down in radiology before leaving today to have that MRI so we can talk about both tests next time." Hank nodded his head at the doctor and looked at me, "Is that good? Are we done here?" I knew he wanted to get out of here so I nodded too and leaned into him for a hug.

JAY'S POV

"I thought you said this week would be the week you'd invite your wife?"

"Mmm, it didn't work out today. She has a lot going on. We planned for it but something came up." I outlined the pattern on the lazyboy chair. 

"It's important that you support each other equally. In the past you have not communicated the kind of support you need from others, you shut people out. You need to open the line of communication, this part of therapy will be crucial to your relationship and I don't need to explain why."

"I MENTIONED IT TO HER, OK?!" he wasn't phased, still sitting cross legged. 

"But did you remind her? You say she has a lot on her plate, was a part of you hoping she would be too busy to hear you talk about WHY you "abandoned" her? Hear about your traumatic accident that put you in a weakened state? Might trigger your PTSD and she might see that side of you? Am I close?

My mouth was so dry. My brain bouncing off the walls of my skull making me dizzy, I put my head in my hands trying to make the feeling disappear. Dr. Leighton was still talking but I've tuned him out by now. 

"ABANDONED?! Don't even go there! I would never abandon Erin! You don't know anything about us, we were happy, supposed to get married, she had my son and I had NO IDEA! I'm not the guy that leaves his family!"

"So what about now? Are you happy now? Are you still getting married? Have you repaired those unknowns? Is there trust? You sound upset, maybe a little angry and we need to decide if you need more session time or if these things can be worked out in here with Erin..."

Sorry for not updating! I had a little writers block but I'm ready to write!