The Ember Garden

The City

They made me leave my city
Pressed it's ashes into the ground

Killed lost memories
I had deep down

And now they wonder
What could've brunt their town

I don't like anyone now
And I don't want anyone around

They're all hellbound
In those pretty little gowns

Lost in cursed euphoria
Pressure's starting to surround

There's incoming claustrophobia
I knew this was bound

It had to happen someday now
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I woke up disoriented from yesterday's occurrence. None of few glimpses I remembered seemed to be a part of reality. I kept on waking up every now and then, and then staying in a weird state of half-death. As if I was asleep, yet wide awake.
I doubt I slept enough to have dreamt something so vivid, though.

So... did Paige come in yesterday? I may have slept for the whole day y'know... And it isn't surprising that I'm still tired (trust me, it's happened before).
Sleep just drains me more, at this point and I'm way too delirious to think properly.

I stepped out of the duvet, onto the cold tiles and prayed that I don't ruin today because of how tired I was. After several attempts of wakening myself, I decided I was ready for today, even though I really wasn't. Paige said she'd show me around town and I was quite excited. I've always loved wandering aimlessly; it was something that helped ease my anxiety.

I made my way down stairs and was welcomed by a scent called home, or in other words:
WAFFLES.
I'd recognize that aroma from even miles away. It was something that brought back childhood memories of when I actually remembered was happiness was like.

I tried focusing on the scent rather than the memories.  As I stepped into the kitchen, I was once again welcomed. This time by the brightest smile ever.

Paige pounced on me as soon as I entered, grinning like a child that's been told school's off. We've gotten super close, even if we haven't known each other for the longest time. "You ready for today!?"
"Well duh", I tried to keep a plain face, while shoving a waffle into my mouth.
Key word: tried.
Paige attempted to make a disgusted face, at my action, but failed miserably.

We both had fun finishing up breakfast and seeing who could stuff the most number of waffles into their mouth at once.
Neither of us bothered cleaning up, and before you could say "waffles", we had raced out and were already prancing around the city.

I was clueless where she was taking me. I just followed her to wherever she wished taking me. Paige showed me all of her favourite places and told random storied about them. My mind was still wandering off, though.

She's is the first person ever to have heard the complete story of my past, even though I had told it in recklessness.
I've never had anyone hug me while I'm crying, mainly because I make sure not to cry in front of others.
I impulsively did something that I'd usually hate myself for, but I don't regret it.
I wonder if she thinks of me as a friend or if this is pity.
I honestly may not care, though. She makes me feel like I've finally found a place where I belong; a place where I'm actually wanted...

I stayed lost in my thoughts while we walked around.

We walked...

and walked...

and walked...

Soon, the two of us found ourselves sitting on a large stone, at the edge of a forest. Our legs were sore and our lungs were begging for oxygen, at this point.

Paige told that this was her quiet place. She'd come here whenever the world seemed too much. It made me feel special that she chose to show me a place that's dear to her. I've always loved when someone shares a thing that's close to their heart. It's like they're leaving your memory here to indirectly make you a part of it too, so that the place becomes even more special.

Does this mean I'm special to Paige? I know it hasn't been long but... we've gotten quite close, if I'm being honest.
Am I even likeable or am I just desperate and making assumptions of my liking... But things are different now so... Maybe?

Ok no. I should stop.