Everything I Ever Wanted

Nightmares

'I do,' she softly brushes some of my hair out of my face and caresses my cheek, the uninjured one. 'Now get some sleep. Goodnight, Eves. I love you.' She kisses my forehead. 'I love you.'I call out as she leaves the room after turning the lights off. I smile and fall asleep quickly thinking about my amazing new home and family.
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Now:
Yeah, unfortunately, the feeling I was experiencing. Happiness. It didn't last long. I hated how I could go between emotions so easily in the night. I fell asleep with a small smile on my face, for once not dreaming of anything. My mind was completely empty as I slept. It was nice. Calm. Nightmare-less. Which meant it was too good to be true. At around two in the morning just a little less than two hours of being asleep, I started dreaming. Well, having a nightmare. I was back at the orphanage and she was screaming at me. I can't even say her name without tearing up. She locked me in the closet again but not after ensuring I knew just how much of a burden I was. The closet was just as I remembered. Dark. Tight. And Scary. At exactly 2:37, I woke up in a cold-sweat, my breathing erratic( side note: I know most eight year olds wouldn't know this word, but I have an extremely advanced vocabulary and am used to writing for school, so some words I use are just by habit)( side side note: they're also fun to say), tears in my eyes begging to fall, and my hands gripping professor hops like I'm going to die if I let go. I knew as soon as I woke up there would be no hope for falling back asleep peacefully. I sat up fully aware that I might fall back asleep to that terrible nightmare if I was laying down. I wipe the tears from my eyes after taking a good ten minutes to regulate my breathing and calm my shaking form. I stayed there stuck in one place for the next hour before deciding some fresh air might help. It always has. I silently climbed out of bed careful not to walk heavily, like I could walk heavily to begin with, but I was careful anyways. Before leaving I grabbed professor hops, hugging him against my body and made my way to the door. Opening the door I peered my head out to make sure no one was awake. When I concluded it was clear, I started my way down down the hallway. The glass wall overlooking outside allowed the night sky to brighten the main area. The moon shining in against the white, marble countertops. I had to adjust from the pitch black room I had just left. Once adjusted, I walked across the kitchen right to the door that led to the balcony. I quietly unlocked the door and pulled it open, struggling quite a bit. What can I say? The door was HEAVY. I only pulled it enough to let me out easily. I walked over towards the railing, breathing in the fresh air. It may have been New York but when you're on the 22nd story almost 230 feet off the ground it doesn't smell awful. Wait 230 feet off the ground. I may have forgotten to mention that I'm scared of heights, although weirdly enough. I'm so out of it from my nightmare that it doesn't bother me. I kinda like looking at the night sky, well as much as you can in New York. But the city looks so pretty at night. I must have been so fascinated by the view that I completely missed the door opening behind me and someone joining me on the balcony. 'What are you doing out here? More importantly why are you awake at 3:45 in the morning?' I knew it was Lizzie. 'I couldn't sleep.' I said quietly hoping to avoid any further conversation of the topic. However, the way my eyes were drooping pleading for my to give in, and how my body was swaying having trouble standing up, revealed my pure exhaustion. I just wished she didn't notice. She did. 'You know from what I can tell, you're are struggling to stay awake right now, so I don't think that's the issue.' She walked over to me, standing behind me and draping her arms over my shoulders, gently pulling me into her so I could lean against her. I gave in allowing her to support some of my weight. She understood that I was hesitant to talk about what really happened so she approached a different way. 'It's pretty out here, isn't it.' I hummed in agreement. She waited a couple minutes. 'Ready to tell me what really happened?' I was too tired to think of something else and to be honest she was the only thing keeping me warm and I was freezing. I was ready to go inside but I had the suspicion I would have to answer first. 'I had a nightmare' I whispered, crossing my fingers in hopes she didn't hear. 'About what?' She wasn't annoyed with my problems. She was concerned. I could hear it in her voice. ' I was back there.' I said not wishing to go into any detail knowing it would only upset me. 'Baby, I know it was scary, but you're never going back there. I hate to say it but you're kinda stuck with us now, and I'm not letting you go anytime soon. Scratch that. Ever. You are never leaving me.' She joked a little to lighten the mood, although I knew she was being sincere in her statements. I thought about it for a moment. 'Maybe that's not so bad.' I smiled a little. She smiled at the thought of me being so happy where I was. 'Maybe not.' She pulled me further into her hugging me. I turned around to hug her properly completely forgetting about why I woke up, and just enjoying the comfort of her embrace. We stood there for a little before she pulled back. 'Ok, I think it's time to go back to bed little miss. We don't wanna wake the twins when they have fifteen minutes before they need to get up. They would kill us. Plus, you're exhausted.' I knew she was right. I even giggled a little with her when she mentioned the twins. 'I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Now come on.' I nodded my head agreeing that we should head back to bed. Before I could make a move to head inside she leaned down and picked me up holding me from under my bottom. It shocked me. 'What are you doing?' 'Baby, you can barely stand here without support. I don't wanna see what would happen if I let you walk. Plus, you're not very heavy.' I nodded and wrapped my arms around her neck still holding professor hops in my hand. I laid my head down in the crook of her neck finally closing my eyes. She walked back inside closing and locking the door behind us and made her way down the hallway back to her room. When we got there she closed the door behind us, confusing me. I looked up a little. 'Where are we?' I said sleepily. 'My room. There's no way you're sleeping alone after a nightmare.' 'Ok.' I yawned. We went over to her bed and she laid down with me practically on top of her. I adjusted laying my head down on her chest while her arms wrapped around me protectively. She kissed the top of my head. 'Goodnight sweet girl, I love you. I'll always protect you.' 'Night Night m-Lizzie' ( A/N: No No No we will not be doing that it's only been like eight hours. Don't get your hopes up too soon.) she smiled a little at my sleepy slip-up (side note: ooh that's fun to say) 'night night baby.' And with that I fell back asleep in the comfort of Lizzie's arms. She fell asleep shortly after me, taking a few extra moments to take in my adorable sleeping form. As a bonus, we didn't wake the twins so we wouldn't have to worry about that.

A/N: I finally uploaded. Update, arms doing a little better. Motivation not so much. ok, I am gonna give a slight spoiler for future chapters. But I was going to do Robbie as Lizzies love interest however while thinking about it I got an adorable idea, so unfortunately Robbie will not be the love interest. Although, I would like to say if he is in the story, it will be as a good guy. We do not appreciate Robbie slander in this story. Anyways love you. Have a great day.
Love,
EJ