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No.48

Tae pov

The letter slipped from his hands
'i dont know what to do my heart it's hurting so bad'

"Y/N!!!"
"COME BACK TO ME!!"
'I love her but she gone now how am I supposed to feel when shes not here with me!'

'How am I supposed to breath if she isn't!!'

'How am I supposed to go on now that she might be gone!'

His knees grew week and the salty tears dripping down his face

'Why didn't i tell her first if i confessed first maybe she would be in my arms and not lying in that bed if i only-!'

"Tae..!"

He lifted his head up to see-

"Y-y/n?" He whispered

He got up and immediately brought her into a hug only to go through her

He looked back at her quickly she was still standing there looking so beautiful with her soft smile he loved so much

"H-how is this p-possible" He reached his hands out for her

She stepped back which confused him

"Im sorry tae dont be sad im always here for you don't forget that ill love you till my last breath my love " her voice ringed in his head  like a melody

"Dont leave please i need you!" She walked away to the window

He ran for her but she just disappeared

"N-no come back oh please baby come back y/n!!"

He felt someone shaking him and thats when  He opened his eyes only to find himself on a  bed

"Tae tae wakey wakey!"

There she stood with a smile on her face she leaned closer to his face and gave him a kiss which tae never wanted to end but unfortunately it did once her pulled away he could see her slowly disappearing

"What's happening!?" He reached out for her hand only to wake up again

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Tae  pov

"Yah tae wake up!"

I jolted up from the bed "Y-y/n!" I looked praying it was her but it was-

"Suga is tae awake!?" In came jin looking terrible he had bloodshot eyes from crying and eye bags no smile on his face was seen just a frown

"Yeah he is now" Suga replied he looked equally as drained

"Y-y/n?" I looked at them for them to only look down in sadness

"S-she is in there" he whispered pointing to the curtain next to us

I got up from the bed quickly only to be held back

"J-jin hyung?"

"Tae you passed out after reading the letter so i dont think its a good idea to see her you might pass out again" he looked at me his grip tightened on my wrist

I pulled it out from his grip "i-i need to see her"

I pulled the curtain back she looked in pain it hurt to see her like this

I grabbed her hand cold to the touch i flinched for a second at the coldness

"Y-y/n your okay im here" i said hoping she would reply but i only got silence