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Chapter 15

It's been weeks since my last conversation with my friends. I can't eat and I've been sleeping for the past few days... hoping that she'll appear on my dreams.

I felt dizzy as I tried to get up. My whole room is a mess. My mother come here everyday to cook my food but I can't eat it.

I fell down on the floor as I tried to reach for the sleeping pills.

"Arg.." I groaned.

"Lisa!" A voice came rushing to me.

"Lisa! What are you doing? Are you trying to kill yourself?" It was Rosé.

"Leave... me.. alone.." I weakly mumbled.

"I'll bring you to the hospital.." I pushed her away and tried to get the sleeping pills.

"Lisa.." I heard her sobbed. That's the last thing I remember before everything went black again.

I woke up with banging headache. When I opened my eyes I saw myself in a hospital bed again. I looked around and saw my mother and Byul talking to the doctor.

"That might be because of trauma.. let's give her more time." I heard him said.

"Lisa.. sweetheart." My mother went to me and gave me a kiss on my forehead.

"Don't do that to yourself again.. okay?" I heard her sobbed.

"Stay with her Byul, I'll just get her something to eat." My mother said. Moonbyul went to my bed and looked at me with empathy.

"Dude.. what are you doing to yourself?" I didn't answer.

"Let us help you.." I shake my head.

"You won't even believe me.." I said as I stared blankly on the ceiling.

"Who said I won't?" I looked at my friend. She just gave me a smile.

"Now.. tell me about this girl of yours.. what's her name? And what does she looked like?" She asked.

"She's perfect, Byul.." I said full of adoration.

"I know we will fight over her if you could just met her.. her name is Ruby Jane Divinagracia. She's a daughter of a wealthy man. She's a good sister.. and she is a perfect lover. I fell in love with her the first time I saw her, Byul." I tear escaped from my eyes again.

"I just want to be with her.. I already gave up my life here." Moonbyul gave me tight hug while I cry myself out.

"She's in the past now, Lisa. You're in the present. Maybe you've just met her for a reason." She said.

"I.. I need to go back to that place." She patted my back.

"I'll go with you once you're okay.." She said and her phone rang.

"I'll just pick this up.." I laid in my bed alone as soon as she left.

I removed all the things attached to me and changed my clothes. My head is still hurting but it's bearable. I grabbed Byul's car keys and peaked on the door. I saw Byul talking to her phone facing the other side. I carefully went out of that room and ran on the other side. I took the fire exit and look for Byul's car. I drive her car to my house to pick something and then I drive myself to that place again.

It took me hours before I reached the place. I felt dizzy but I just ignored it. The mansion is back to its old self. No old looking cars, no helpers on the garden, no Ruby Jane.. no one is here beside me. I opened the door and picked up some keys from the box on the table.

I walked towards the old painting. My knees felt weak as I stared at the family portrait hanging on the wall.

"Ruby Jane.." I whispered as looked into her picture. Her eyes were sad again.

I gathered all my strength to walk on the stairs. I can't count how many times I fell down on my knees before I reached the last floor. My vision is getting blurry as I walked towards her room. I entered the key and pushed the door open.

The familiar ambiance of the room lingers on me. Her bed is still here. The huge wardrobe is still here. Her table is still here. Her memory... is still her. My heart broke into pieces again. I can't stand anymore so I fell down on my knees.

"Bring me back.. please.. let's watch the stars again.. let me watch you paint again.. let's walk endlessly to the garden.. let me kiss you under the moonlight again.. please.... just... bring me back.." My tears fell endlessly on my cheeks again.

I wipe my tears as I noticed something under her wardrobe. I bent down to reach for it. It's a rolled canvas. I opened it and I saw a portrait of a man.. that looks exactly like me.. Limario.

Thoughts empty.. I walked through the pouring rain.. bear footed with the canvas on my hand. I don't know how I was still able to walk with this heavy heart. I can't think of anything right now. The rain ran along with my tears.

I heard a loud beep from behind but I didn't bother to look.

"Lisa! What the fuck are you doing?!" I looked at my friend dead in the eye.

"Let's go back.." She dragged me inside a car. I sat there and stared blankly on nowhere. She was saying something but  I can't hear anything.

I was sitting on my bed with a blank expression. I don't know what's happening anymore.

"Lisa.. eat something please." I didn't bother to look at the person beside me.

"Lisa.. here.. eat this." She was holding a spoon with food.

"Leave.." I nonchalantly said.

"Lisa.. you can't be like this forever.. just eat something." She persistently said.

"Just leave me alone!" I pushed her hand causing the food and plate scattered on the ground. I felt a soft sob coming from her. I saw her left on my peripheral vision. Someone entered as soon as she left.

"What the fuck is your problem Lisa?!" Moonbyul.. grabbed the collar of my shirt. I deadly looked into her eye.

"Did you know how much she cared for you?! She never left your side when you were still in coma!" I didn't even flinched.

"She never left your side.. Lisa. 3 months. She didn't come back to Korea. She's in the verge of loosing her career. She took care of you. Why don't you just let her help you? We're here to help."

"I didn't ask her to do anything.. i don't need your help." I coldly said. She aggressively pushed me. She walked out the door.. leaving me alone in my room again.

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