Rebirth (A Remington Leith AU)

Chapter 18

I laid on my bed, crying out everything I was feeling: anger, confusion, frustration, sadness, I don't understand how I could act so shrew. I've never been the kind to lash out the way I just did, but it was only because I didn't like her trying to touch Remington as if he weren't married to me. Does this make me a horrible person? Am I too sensitive? And worst of all, does Remington think differently of me now that he's seen a different side of me I didn't even realize I had? My thoughts were plaguing my head when I heard someone knocking on the bedroom door and I called out, "I just need a moment..." Then a familiar voice responded with, "So do I, with you." I turned to see Remington had opened the door and then closed it before approaching closer to me on the bed and then taking a seat on the edge close to me. I turned to face him but keep my eyes from his, afraid he was disappointed in me. Instead he asked with a gentle tone, "Lulu...did I do something wrong?"

I lifted my head up and looked at him in shock that he believed he was at fault here. I sat up and shook my head at his question, "No, Remington! It wasn't you I was upset at, it was that duchess that was acting inappropriately around you! How could she do that knowing you were married to me? Are there really people that selfish that they won't even respect someone's marriage or union to another?" He took my hand and responded with, "Yes, Lulu. Unfortunately, some people don't care about others and will go as far to hurt them to gain what they want. But you need not to be concerned with people like that, especially Duchess Cora." I asked him, "I don't?" "Yes. You know why?" I shook my head, "No, why?" He smiled at me and placed his hand on my cheek while telling me, "Because my heart belongs to you and nothing can ever change that while I have you in my life." My eyes widened as his eyes gazed lovingly into my eyes and I felt myself never wanting to look away before he asked me, "Is that why you were jealous of Cora, my princess?"

I blinked hard when he asked me, the question making my mind race, "Jealous?", I asked. He chuckled and explained, "Yes, jealous. Maybe you were afraid I might run away with the duchess or something like that. But there's no need. Still, I'd like to know why you felt the need to act jealous though it's unlike you to act in such a way." He leaned closer to my face, the action making me nervous as I realized he wanted the answer he already knew but he wanted me to say it. I wanted to tell him, but I was so scared to admit it out loud. Still, I can't hide my feelings any longer and take him for granted. I shut my eyes closed and gripped on his shirt while hiding my face in his chest as I confessed to him, "I was jealous because...because...BECAUSE I'VE FALLEN COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH YOU, REMINGTON!"

Just saying that felt like a boulder was lifted off of my chest and I ended up pouring out my feelings for him, "I've loved you since the day of our wedding and my love for you only got stronger as you treated me so well and made me feel like I was the most beautiful and amazing woman to ever exist in this world. I feel bad for realizing this only recently but I needed you to know why I behaved like that and it wasn't because I was trying to be horrible to her. I needed her to understand that...I loved you too much to let you go so easily." I felt anxiety fill my veins as Remington felt stiff after I confessed everything and I was afraid I said too much. Slowly, I pulled away from his chest to peek at his face and gasped lightly to find that he was crying. He brought his hand up to my face and wiped a few tears away, I didn't realize I was crying too. He let out a breath of delight as a grin appeared on his face and he said to me while holding my face gently in his hands, "My sweet and precious Luella, you'll never have to let me go. I love you more than anything I've ever loved before and I'll remind you every day so you never have to doubt again."

His words managed to make me smile back at him, and for the first time, I leaned in first to kiss him and he rejoicingly kissed back before wrapping his arms around me. My heart felt like it was flying as we continued to kiss with happiness, and then Remington pulled away to look into my eyes deeply and longingly. It made me slightly nervous as he proceeded to gently push me down on the bed until I was on my back and he was left towering over me, staring at me like he would never let his eyes leave mine. He leaned in again for another kiss, but this kiss was deeper and much more passionate as I felt like my breath was being taken away. Remington then moved his lips down to the crook of my neck where his kisses there caused me to let out sighs and moans, and I felt a new sensation below my stomach that was only growing as he continued to leave kisses on my skin. "R-Remington, I-I...", I couldn't speak properly before Remington stopped and then he leaned his forehead against mine, I felt his breath fanning on my face as my cheeks flushed pink.

"You're the only woman I'll ever want for myself, Lulu", he whispered in a low tone, his voice sending shivers throughout my body, "When you're ready, I will prove to you why it's a waste of time for you to be jealous of anybody who isn't you. And I promise you, you'll be more than glad once I do. God, how much I want to do that now, but just knowing you love me back already sends me to the heavens. I love you so much, my beautiful angel." Overwhelmed by everything he just said to me, I managed to settle my fast-pacing heart as I told him back, "I love you, too, Remington. I'll be looking forward to that day, and my love for you will be permanent no matter what." He grinned as he shared one last kiss with me and then we snuggled close to each as we finally turned in for the night. My God, look at where I am now. From initially being scared of being pushed into a new life to falling deeply in love with the beautiful and loving prince who accepted me entirely and captured my heart more than once.