Rebirth (A Remington Leith AU)

Chapter 35

(Warning: there is smut around the end of this chapter. I put warnings so you know when it starts and ends if you decide to skip it. Thank you!)

It's only been a week or so since Remington was fully recovered thanks to the doctors and staff working hard to bring him back, especially my mother. Everyone around him treated him like fragile glass since his injury and while it was flattering, Remington wished they didn't have to be so gentle with him. I was more than ecstatic to be back home with him and be by his side again, but for some reason, something within me changed in the way I felt whenever Remington was around. It's almost as if the same feelings I get when we're sharing brief and intimate moments together by ourselves, have increased now that whenever he holds me close or shares his sweet kisses, I feel a stronger kind of attraction towards him and my body's responding to his affection for me as if it wants more and won't be satisfied unless I bring him closer to me. I knew what I wanted, but how was I supposed to let him know without him finding it to be embarrassing?

To try to forget about my growing feelings, I tried avoiding Remington even though I had a feeling it was a bad idea to do so. If I saw Remington coming, I'd try walking the other direction or telling him I'm busy with something else. He seemed confused for most of that day, and I was afraid he'd end up believing I was upset with him or something. How do you tell your loved one it's hard to be close to them without having your senses being driven crazy with barely any effort? When it was dinner time, I sat close to Remington but didn't look at him to avoid him noticing me feeling flustered and aroused. He asked me one moment, "Lulu, why won't you look at me? Have I done something to upset you?" Keeping my eyes on my plate, I just shook my head and was left fidgeting in my seat before I asked to be excused and headed back to our bedroom. As I sat on the edge of the bed, I was worried I might have gotten Remington upset at me for avoiding him all day with no explanation. I didn't even have to wait too long before Remington came into the room and locked the door before approaching me and crashing his lips onto mine.

I was taken back by his sudden and bold move as I attempted to kiss him back but then he ended up pushing me down on my back. I had to push him away and ask, "Remington, what's gotten into you?" He looked at me longingly and hung his head before kneeling before me to bury his face above my legs, telling me in a pleading tone, "I don't know what I did wrong, my love, but I just can't stand that you won't stay close to me or look at me. I'm sorry about whatever I did, please let me love you properly." I sat up to watch Remington and was absolutely stunned to see him act like this towards me. Something ignited inside of me and I realized I could no longer hold myself back. I ran my hand through his hair and rub his back soothingly as I consoled him, "Remington, I'm not mad at you or anything like that. I'm sorry if I made you feel that way." He lifted his head back up to face me and hold my hands in his, "Then what's the problem, my love?" My face flushed red as a rose as I embarrassingly confessed to him, "I'm just having a hard time...
c-controlling myself around you."

His expression changed as he looked at me in shock and I had to turn away to avoid his gaze on me after I just said that. I could feel him inching closer to my face as he asked in a teasing tone, "Oh? Is that so, my princess? Has the sweet and innocent Luella finally begun yearning for her husband to love her in the way she deserves to be loved?" My heart was beating so fast and my mind was racing like crazy as Remington took my chin in his hand and turned my head so I'd be looking into his eyes now filled with lust and desire, the sight spiraling my senses wild. "If that is what you wish, all you need is ask. I've been wanting to make love to you for so long, but waited only until you were finally ready to give yourself to me so I can give myself to you." I got lost in his eyes as he intrigued me more into his spell and I knew now I wanted nothing more that what we were desiring at this very moment. I tugged at his shirt and asked in a hushed voice, "Please, Remington, will you fulfill my body's desire to feel you and your heart in me?"

He grinned as he wasted no time pressing his lips onto mine and I felt my heart beating fast for him. He pulled away as he started to undress himself and he never took his eyes off of mine, my excitement felt like it was growing more with his gaze. After he was fully undressed, he went back to kiss my lips and then move his lips down to the crook of my neck, I started letting out sighs of pleasure. He asked me as he had the line of my dress in his fingers, "Is this okay, Lulu?", I nodded and he proceeded to pull it down until I was in my undergarments. He then unbuttoned the back of it before he removed it from my body, I was completely exposed then and felt slightly vulnerable. He must have noticed as he looked at me and looked concerned, "Are you sure about this, my love? If you're feeling scared, we can stop and I won't be disappointed." I widened my eyes at him, pleased to know he could never hold a grudge against me. I smiled as I told him, "No, it's okay. I'm just a little nervous since this is my first time and I don't know what I should do exactly."

(SMUT WARNING: LASTS FOR THE NEXT 2 PARAGRAPHS)

He smiled back and then carried me in his arms before laying me down on the bed and then climbing on top of me as well as cover our bodies under the sheets. With him gazing lovingly into my eyes like that and holding the side of my face in his hand so softly, I knew I had no reason to be afraid as he leaned down to kiss my lips and make the world around us disappear. I could feel him shifting his way between my legs and I started losing my breath as I felt knots developing below my stomach. Remington pulled away as he whispered in a soft tone, "God, I might not be able to hold myself back with you. I'll try to be gentle and slow with you, but don't ever hesitate to let me know if I'm hurting you. I love you so much." With one last kiss, I said back to him, "I love you, too. I'm ready." Remington then kept his eyes on mine as he pushed himself into me and there was pain initially and he stopped, worried for me. I waited a moment before I asked him to go slow for now. He complied as he started at a slow pace and placed kisses on my neck and shoulder.

The pain soon transformed into sweet pleasure I've never experienced before as each stroke made me let out moans in response and I held on tightly to Remington and dared not to let go. How did this feel so foreign yet so amazing? My body felt like it was burning but I wanted more. His lovemaking was so good, he had me calling out his name and it seemed to make him go faster and deeper into me which left me feeling breathless. How could I have held myself back for so long if I had only known it would feel this euphoric and sweetly intoxicating? But I knew it was because Remington loved me enough to wait until I was completely ready for him to show just how much he loves me and prove once and for all, there really is no one in his heart who can replace me. After a while, I felt the pleasure within me start to build up more and I dug my nails down his back as my moans grew louder and I felt myself reach a heavenly peak that left me exhausted.

(SMUT SCENE OVER - SAFE TO READ THIS LAST PARAGRAPH)

Remington collapsed beside me and we laid there completely out of breath and our veins filled with satisfaction of the pleasure we had experienced with each other. I turned to rest closer to Remington as I placed my head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me, the warmth of his skin bringing me security and comfort. I was out of breath but I mustered enough energy to tell him, "Remington, I won't ever stop loving you even after this life is over." I could hear Remington's smile as he replied with, "Neither will I, my sweet and precious Luella." We drifted off to sleep after that and my heart felt full and happy.