If only...

Why?!

The moment I heard the voice, I froze and looked into to mirror. There he was. Shiggy my own brother was looking at me with wide eyes. I turned around and looked at him before backing away.

Me: Sh-Shiggy?

Shiggy: It's me my little titan!

Me: Get away from me!

I was scared and happy to see him. This should have been my last moment but now I didn't know if it really was. It was certain for me that I didn't deserved it at all. They coughed me and I knew that they could replace me very easily.

Shiggy: Izu, please! Don't do it!

I was backing away until my back hit the sink behind me.

Me: I am sorry! I don't deserve this!

Shiggy: That's not true!

Me: Why? You will get coughed if you stay here any longer! You should leave!

Shiggy: I won't let my little brother go through something like this on his own!

Me: Shiggy....

Shiggy: Izu listen. I don't know what is going through your head right now, but you are a strong titan and you know that your game plans are always the best! You are an A-rated player not a useless NPC! We need you. I need you!

Me: Shiggy...

I still had the shard in my hand but now I felt like I didn't had any power to stand and fell to the ground with my hand and the item in it still pointing towards my neck. Tears were falling down my cheek. I couldn't believe what he just said.

Shiggy: Izu please put it down.

Me: But... You... I.... Why?

Shiggy: You are my little brother and I won't let you lose this game of life like this.

Me: Shiggy....

He slowly went to my side and kneeled down in front of me before touching the shard with his reached out hand and pulverized it.

Shiggy: This is never an option Izu.

Me: I missed you.

Now that I knew he was there I immediately tackled him and hugged him. We both were now on the ground and he was hugging me back being careful to not touch me with his fife fingers.

Shiggy: I was watching over you even if you don't know it.

Me: How?

I was crying and a simple mess in his arms.

Shiggy: Father was helping me.

Me: *sob* so you *sob*

Shiggy: Yes. I know about your three attempts but there was always a hero nearby so I never came. This time is different though. Izu... Me and Dabi are so worried after hearing that you tried to take your life. After that we thought it might be best for you to stay here.

Me: *sob* but!

Shiggy: I knew it was the wrong game plan. I am sorry I am late!

Me: *sob*Shiggy!

All I could do was hugging him even closer to me. He felt warm and it was proof that he was not an imagination but the real deal.

Shiggy: I would never leave you alone!

Me: ...

Shiggy: Father told me to stay with you.

Me: *sob* But then you will be caught too *sob*

Shiggy: We are prepared to give our live as villain up. If that means to not lose your life. As long as I have you there won't be a game over.

Me: *sob* What about Mamagiri and Dabi?

Shiggy: They are not as important as you my little titan.

Me: *sob* You are the best brother one can have, Oniichan!

Shiggy: How I missed you calling me Oniichan!

He was hugging me very tightly and never letting me go. We didn't care how long we would stay like this.

Shiggy: I'll protect my little titan no matter what!

I felt sluggish after crying soo much that I fell asleep in his arms.

Shiggy: I'll be always there for you Izu.

That was the last thing I heard before falling asleep completely.