𝙰𝚗𝚝𝚒 𝙷𝚎𝚛𝚘

Awake Again

I jumped up from my chair and tried to run to the stairs. I had forgotten once again my legs were broken and fell flat on my face. Everyone else ran up the stairs and didn't even notice that I fell. I pushed myself into a sitting position and looked at the ground. There was blood. I really hoped I hadn't reopened one of my cuts. I felt a wet substance dripping down my face and knew it wasn't that. I wiped my nose and looked back at my finger. it was covered with blood. I had probably just broken my nose or something so I would be fine. I grabbed the end of the counter and pulled myself onto my feet. I grabbed my crutches and tried to run as fast as I could. I still got there about ten minutes after everyone else and Dabi was already sitting up and talking. He noticed me right as I walked it.

"What happened to your face?" he asked.

"Fell," I replied plainly.

"Looks like you got just as beat up as me in the fight," Dabi said gesturing my legs.

"I think you had it worse," I argued. Dabi chuckled and turned back to Shigaraki. I sat down next to Toga.

"Oh no did you fall?" she asked.

"Yea," I sighed.

"Here let me help," she said. I tried to protest but she wouldn't listen. She licked directly under my nose and got all of the blood.

"Hey!" I exclaimed.

"What? No one ever lets me drink their blood these days. I saw this as an opportunity and took it."

I tried to shove her off me but she continued to drink my blood. I eventually just pulled her down into a kiss. I could taste my blood on her tongue. It was a very weird feeling and I wasn't sure if I liked it. I knew Toga couldn't help liking blood but did she really have to lick it off my face? In front of everyone too. I decided just to let it go because we had been through weirder shit lately.

I wanted to talk to Dabi a little bit so I pushed Toga off of me. She wiped some of my blood up before I could stop her and licked her finger. I gave up and got up from the chair. I used it to steady myself while I grabbed my crutches. I wished that Toga had stolen a wheelchair or something. It would be so much easier to get around. I clumsily made my way to the bed that Dabi was on and sat down. I prayed that I hadn't sat on him because I had kind of just collapsed.

"Why are you so eager to talk to me?" Dabi teased.

"I don't know guess I just missed you," I replied.

"I doubt that."

"I really did miss you," I said, tears coming to my eyes. But it would have been so embarrassing to cry over some sappy shit. I tried to tell myself that but my eyes just kept brimming with water. I bit my lip to try and hold them back but it wasn't enough. I blinked and water spilled over onto my cheeks.

"Are you crying?" Dabi asked.

"Shut up!" I retorted. I rubbed my eyes and looked back at Dabi. He looked like he was on the verge of tears too.

"Aww did you miss me too?" I taunted.

"Not a chance."

"Who am I kidding you were probably dreaming about me."

"Was not!"

"Guess we'll never know."

"Whatever. Are you and Toga a thing now?"

"Yep, are jealous I can pull girls and you can't."

"Who said I was trying to pull girls?"

"Omg-"

"I'm just kidding... or not."

"You've always been a little fruity."

"Mhm and you've always been a whole ass fruit cake," Dabi said. We both burst into laughter. It was nice just joking around. I had truly missed Dabi and was glad he was back. Even though I didn't really want to admit it. 

"Y/n go fix your face," Shigaraki said.

"Fine," I sighed. I got up and walked to the bathroom. I was still hobbling around on my crutches. When I got there I washed off my face on looked at my nose. It was only bleeding so I didn't need to do anything about it. I got a wad of toilet paper and held it up to my nose. Hopefully, that would stop the bleeding. I went back to my room after that and spent most of my day there. I only came down for dinner. Even then no one was downstairs. They were all in Dabi's room. I felt a bit rude for not being with him but I knew he probably didn't appreciate all the attention. I ate dinner in silence left alone in my thoughts. All I could think about was if Dabi blamed me for what happened to him. I did but in my mind, almost everything was my fault. Dabi didn't seem to be mad at me but still, he pushed me away and took the blow. He probably couldn't have avoided it anyway but he could have jumped away in the time he spent helping me. I always thought of him as a self-serving person so I would have never thought that his first reflex would be to protect the other person. I always envied people like that. I was very selfish and always prioritized self-preservation. It got me out of trouble but I knew it wasn't a good quailty. Everyone is supposed to be this kind, selfless person and I'm not. And I don't necessarily want to be either. I want to be a successful and confident person who lives for themselves. But it seems selfish for me to think that way and I try to hide it. 

After a lonely dinner, I went back up to my room and laid down. I fully intended to sleep even though I wasn't tired at all. My bed felt strangely cold and empty. I found myself missing Toga. I had been so reluctant to let her sleep in my bed last night because I hated sleeping with other people but oddly enough I had enjoyed it. I tossed around in my bed trying to get comfortable but nothing was working. Eventually, I gave up and just laid there wide awake. After a few hours, I heard my door open. I jumped from the bed and looked directly at the door. I hoped it was Toga n the back of my mind but instead I saw a hunched-over figure with spiky hair. He was holding the door and looked like he was about to collapse. I knew it was Dabi. I wanted to go and help him but I also couldn't walk.

"I didn't mean to scare you," Dabi said, his voice was shaky and breathy. 

"It's fine. A few feet from you, you'll see crutches use those and come sit on my bed," I advised. Dabi grabbed the crutches, almost falling over in the process. He stumbled over to my bed and sat down on the edge.

"So what do you want?" I asked.

"When I got punched I saw my life flash before my eyes. I honestly thought I was going to die. At that moment, all I could think about was my family. I realized then that that was the biggest unresolved conflict in my life. It haunts me and I don't know how to fix it other than pushing it away. So I've decided... that I...," Dabi began to say. He seemed so hesitant to say something. 

"I want to talk about it," he finally managed to spit out. At those words, I watched as tears poured from his eyes. I had never seen Dabi cry and didn't even think he was capable of doing that. But here he was proving me wrong. 

They gonna bond over trauma basically.