I Was Never Yours

Chapter 60

Steve P.O.V

Tony drags me into his room, shuts the door behind us and slams my back against the wall, crushing his lips to mine. I want him so badly and I'm so hard that I think I could cum solely from the friction of his hip rubbing against my crotch.

I kiss his neck which gains me a throaty moan. 

"Fuck, I love you," he murmurs, making me stop dead. He pulls away, his cheeks flushed. "Sorry, I, I don't know why I said that."

"It's okay," I stammer and drag a hand through my hair. The words seem to have broken the reverie we were both under, allowing time for my conscience to kick in.

"I love you too, but, I don't think I can do this," I tell him and it's the truth, I do love him, but I don't know if it's the right kind of love, and to top it all off, I have a girlfriend.

"You started this," he sulks and motions to our now declining erections. "You've been trying to get into my pants since last night, it's fucking confusing. You shouldn't toy with people."

"I'm sorry." I sit down on the edge of his bed and cradle my head in my hands. "I don't know what's wrong with me. I have really intense and confusing feelings for you, but I also have feelings for May, and I really don't want to cheat on her."

Tony sighs and sits down beside me. "I get it, but listen, I'm going to arrange a date with Pepper for next week. Once I'm dating her this kind of shit can't happen anymore, seriously."

"I know, I'm sorry. I do really love you, you're my family."

He takes my hand and squeezes it. "Yeah, me too."

I lean my head on his shoulder and close my eyes as he kisses my temple. "It's been such an emotional day and we still have a party to get through," I groan.

"And you have a virginity to lose," Tony chuckles.

My stomach flips. "I've been trying not to think about that."

"You'll be fine."

"I hope so," I say and then grimace. "I'm sorry I've been such a jerk, hopefully after tonight I'll be able to relax a little."

Tony hums and rubs my back. "It's okay, but dating changes people. You're going to find that you won't want to do much other than being with your girlfriend, which is fine, but you need to remember that we have a little girl who loves you desperately. Callie is really struggling, we all need to be available to her."

"Callie is the most important person in the world to me, I will always make time for her," I insist. "I can't see myself changing that much over a woman I just met."

"You'd be surprised, buddy," Tony chuckles.

I'm about to retort when there's a soft knock at the door. "Yeah?" I call out.

The door cracks open. "Hey guys, Bartons are here," Thor says. His head peeks around the corner and he grins. "Oh, no one is naked. I'm surprised."

"Yeah, Stevie chickened out." Tony tousles my hair.

"I didn't chicken out," I say, irate, "I came to my senses."

"Yeah, whatever."

Thor laughs. "Well, come on then, Callie is really excited."

"You guys go ahead, I need a minute," Tony says and Thor nods and exits the room.

I rise to follow but stop and turn to look at my friend. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I just, I'm probably going to wank one off honestly," he admits with a blush. "You've gotten me really excited twice today, I need to deal with it now so I can focus on the kid."