Ms. CEO and Her past

Part 32

Nayeon POV

We are having fun all day until the evening came, so we all stayed inside the cottage. We are keep on drinking but I didn't really drink a lot today. I choose not too cause I don't wanna look like a big mess here again like before. 

Dahyun been so quiet all day too. she would just talk when someone talk to her, but I still feel like she's having fun too. she's just looking straight to the front where are friends are singing and having fun like crazy because some of my friends are already drunk. 

I already notice that she keeps on avoiding me and being cold to me since earlier but still I would check on her time by time, by looking at her but not talking to her. I also already notice that she's drink quite a lot already so I would always look at her to see if she's still ok. But base on what I can see to her, she can keep staying still on her place.

"nalalasing ba siya?", I ask myself while looking at her, para kasing hindi.

I'm just looking at her while she's looking at our friends when suddenly Chaeyoung grab dahyun's hand and bring her in the front to sing the song that Chaeyoung entered. It just sucks because the song is "Shout out to my ex", I feel like Chaeyoung did it on purpose but knowing that she's already drunk I let it be. I'm staying in my place still looking at Dahyun while she's singing the song. suddenly while looking at her she also look at me when the song is almost done. I felt my heart ache so suddenly specially when she look at me, I feel like the real meaning of the song hit me. I suddenly feel like wanted to leave the place right now.  Right after the song, I immediately stood up so the others look at me. I already wanted to leave so I just told them na magpapahangin lang ako sa labas.

"Guys papahangin lang ako", I told them. 

Hindi ko na hinintay na sumagot sila at tumakbo na ako agad palabas. Nang makalabas ako tumakbo lang ako sa tabing dagat at dun na bumuhos yung mga luha ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano talaga reason ng pag-iyak ko pero feeling ko gusto ko na lang talaga umiyak ngayon. 

ilang minuto pa lang akong nandun when I suddenly heard na may nagsalita sa likod ko kaya tinignan ko ito. I got shock a little bit nung nakita ko si dahyun.

"Why did you leave?", tanong niya agad nang makaupo sa tabi ko.

"Why are you here?", tanong ko din naman sa kanya.

"Sinundan kita", Sagot niya kaya hindi na ko nagsalita.

"Eh ikaw bakit ka nandito, trip mo lang?", Sabi nito na may kasamang pang-aasar.

"I just want to think", Yun na lang sinabi ayoko na sabihin sa kanya na gusto ko umiyak kasi obvious naman.

"Don't tell me you took the song seriously", Sabi niya nang tumingin siya sakin.

"Should I?", tanong ko sa kanya kahit totoo naman na medyo nasaktan ako dun sa kanta. She just shook her head when I look at her.

"You shouldn't", sagot nito.

We continue talking especially her, she talk about how she wanted to feel the same moments we had when she confess her feelings for me for the first time. I got little bit confuse about that when she ask if she's gonna experience that again. She keeps on talking until she got to the point on how she felt so guilty right now because she didn't really thought that I would be a big mess around those years that she's not around but all I can say is I'm sorry because I know I'm the one who put her life in a mess.

"I did that because I realized na hindi tama yung ginawa ko and I just made the situation more worst kaya gusto ko mag-sorry sayo. When you left my room I knew I made a wrong decision. I thought doing would be better for the both of us lalo na sayo kasi I realize na masyado ka nang nahihirapan at nasasaktan everytime na mag-aaway tayo. I already told the understands before pa man yun. I loved you but I can't bare to see you hurting because of me. They told me not to do it, but I didn't listen to them. When you left and didn't comeback after that night I know they are mad at me because of what I did even if they won't say it", I said then breathe heavily. nakikinig lang siya sakin habang nakatingin pa rin sa harap.

"They even told me that they aren't mad but they are sulking at me but I know some are they won't just show it. I show how they make a lot of effort on finding you, but then one day they went back home without knowing where are you. So I left my room and told them to stop already and I will be the one who will look for you since I'm the one who made the mess. I came to the point as well of giving up already but I know I shouldn't not until I find you", My tears started to fall even more.

We both stayed like that sitting at the sand looking in the beautiful view in front of us even though it's dark already. silent took over us once again and no one is talking. We're in a very deep silent when she suddenly talk.

"When I started liking you before I'm not really sure what I feel that time, all I know is that I like it when you're around and always wanted you to be near me", She said so I look at her.

"Jeongyeon unnie, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu made me realize that time, that I really do have feelings for you so they push me and force me to confess on you cause they said I might have a chance so I did it", I just keep my eyes on her.

"When we got close again, I started to feel things like before. but just like before, I'm not sure about it again. I would always think that I can't love you anymore because loving you hurts", she look right into my eyes.

"Earlier when I told them what I feel right now Chaeng told me that I felt this before so It made me realize that I'm in love with you again. but still I'm devastating about my feelings for you It's still aren't very clear for me", she said then put her hands into my cheeks. 

"I thought that maybe you can make it clear for me?", The last thing she said then went near me. Our face is very near to each other, Our forehead is touching and she's just looking straight into my eyes until she captured my lips. At first I got a little shock, I can't even believe what is happening. did she really meant what she said or yet again she just said this because she's drunk.