Ms. CEO and Her past

Part 31

Dahyun POV

It's already night and we are just staying inside the cottage. We all keep on drinking alcoholic drinks. I already lost counts on how much I drink already but I didn't mind it and just stay still at my place even though I felt so dizzy already.

Mina unnie and Jeongyeon unnie would always check on me like every minute and I would always say that I'm fine. I actually wanted to let out myself already and have fun considering where in this kind of place but my body don't feel like doing it either.

Some of them are already drunk and being crazy while having fun specially Jeongyeon unnie, Chaeyoung, Sana unnie and Momo unnie while the others are just feeling the song and would also laugh at our other members.

When the song that they are singing already went to the end Chaeyoung enter another one. She grab the mic and started singing the song "shout out to my ex" then look at me while singing.

"This is a shout out to my ex
Heard he in love with some other chick
Yeah yeah, that hurt me, I'll admit
Forget that boy, I'm over it
I hope she gettin' better sex
Hope she ain't fakin' it like I did, babe
Took four long years to call it quits
Forget that boy, I'm over it", Chaeyoung look at me teasingly. Her being so drunk she manage to grab the other mic and went in front of me.

"Guess I should say thank you
For the hate yous and the tattoos
Oh baby, I'm cool by the way
Ain't sure I loved you anyway
Go 'head, babe, I'mma live my life, my life, yeah", she sang again then grab my wrist and pulled me in the front and told me to sing. I let go of her hands and ready to sing the song I think this is the right time for me to let out myself.

"Shout out to my ex, y

ou're really quite the man

You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here's to my ex, hey, look at me now
Well, I, I'm all the way up
I swear you'll never bring me down
Shout out to my ex, you're really quite the man You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here's to my ex, hey, look at me now
Well, I'm, I'm all the way up
I swear you'll never, you'll never bring me down", I started singing as well feeling how drunk I am right now.

"Shout out to my ex, you're really quite the man
(You're quite the man)
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here's to my ex, hey, look at me now
Well, I'm, I'm all the way up, I swear you'll never bring me down
(You'll never bring me down)", when the song is almost done, my eyes suddenly landed to nayeon. She's looking at me deeply I felt that she wanted to leave the place but she's stopping herself for doing it.

When the song finally finished I put the mic but my eyes never leave nayeon. Chaeng also got grab by her girlfriend already seeing how drunks she is. I'm just still standing there looking at her but then suddenly she stood up from her seat and talk.

"Guys papahangin lang ako", she said then run leaving us in the cottage. After she left they all look at me while I'm still standing.

"Tatayo ka lang ba dyan?", Jihyo unnie ask.

"Dubu follow her", Sana unnie drunkly said. I look at them still hesitating but after a minute I immediately run outside even though I'm already dizzy to look for her.

I run after her. When I got outside I look around to see her and got relieved when I saw her sitting near the shore. It's not really that dark outside so I can still see her so I walk near her and then sit beside her.

"Why did you leave?", She kind of got shock a little bit when I talk so she look at me.

"Why are you here?", She ask, tears are visible in her eyes.

"Sinundan kita", I shortly answered.

"Eh ikaw bakit ka nandito, trip mo lang?", I said playfully, looking in front.

"I just wanted to think", she answered.

"Don't tell me you took the song seriously", I said then look at her.

"Should I?", Nayeon ask so I shook my head.

"You shouldn't", I answered.

"Then why are you looking at me when you sang it?", She ask curiously.

"I don't know my eyes just suddenly landed on you", I said then went back to look in front.

"Nonsense", she blurted out then look in front of her as well.

"It's not", I shortly said.

"My eyes would always wanted look at you but didn't have the courage to do so", I continue. I silent took us so I talk again.

"nayeonie, do you remember when the first time I confess to you before?", I ask. I felt her nod her head so I keep my eyes in front.

"You would always pinch my cheeks and kiss them when I blush", I said smiling but she didn't talk back and just keeps on listening to whatever I'm blurting out.

"Would I experience it again?", I suddenly blurted out so she look at me.

 "I sound so delusional hoping for that", I said again.

"W-what do you mean?", She ask looking at me but didn't look back at her.

"10 years ago when you broke up with me, I only know that I was hurt and in pain", I said instead of answering her question.

"I never really thought or rather understand what you felt. So I thought because of the pain that I'm feeling that time, leaving was the only thing I could think off. Sobrang sakit kasi eh thinking na binigay ko naman yung lahat pero parang hindi parin sapat. Siguro nga tama si Mina unnie, napagod lang ako that time at mas pinili ko na lang muna yung sarili ko kasi naubos na ko", I said my tears are about to fall but I'm forcing myself not too break down.

"When I went to abroad that time I was a really big mess... But one time my sister made me realize na hindi ko dapat ikulong yung sarili ko, that I should make myself busy para maka move on ako. So I did what she said, I made myself busy with studying and working. And time goes by so fast unti unti ko na nababaon yung sakit na nararamdaman ko at pagmamahal na meron ako for you in the buttom of my heart", I said then wipe my eyes.

"Nagawa ko ng kalimutan ka, but I felt like lahat bumalik when I saw you for the first time after 10 years in the party"

"I'm so sorry dahyunie", nayeon weakly said but I shook my head to say she doesn't have to be sorry.

"You don't have to be sorry nayeonie. I suddenly felt guilty when the girls talk to me and told me how you became a big mess when I left. I didn't really thought it's gonna be so hard for you as well kasi nga alam ko lang nasasaktan ako. Iniisip ko nung una habang sinasabi nila yun kung bakit mo ginawa lahat yun around those years eh ikaw yung gustong umalis ako sa buhay mo. But now I understand all of it and it makes sense to me now. I realized na parehas lang tayong nasasaktan at nahihirapan around those years", I stop after that and averted my eyes to her, she look into my eyes also. We just stare at each other for a minute and silent took over us again.