Celine POV
Sabay kaming umuwi ni Shan kinaumagahan. Nagpaiwan si Galvan sa hospital dahil sa emergency kanina. Pinaghanda ko ng makakain si Shan. Nakaupo lang siya sa sala at nakatitig sa phone niya.
Tinawag ko na siya para kumain. Kaagad rin naman siyang pumunta sa upuan niya't nagsimulang kumain.
"Free ako ngayon. Gusto mo ba pumunta sa isla?" sabi ko kay Shan.
"What for?" malamig na tugon niya.
"Uuwi ka na bukas kaya baka gusto mong pumunta. Hindi naman kita pinipilit."
He looked at me coldly.
"Why did you say yes to him?"
Natigilan ako sa sinabi ni Shan. He knew? Naroon ba siya kagabi? Nakita niya ba kami ni Galvan? I want to tell him about that soon but not now. Because I know, it would hurt him.
"Alam mo namang m-mahal ko siya di ba?" kabadong tugon ko.
"Could that love make you happy without hurting anyone?"
Hindi ko alam kung bakit naiinis ako sa tono ng pananalita ni Shan. Oo alam kong hindi pa maayos ang lahat. Pero kakayanin naman namin ni Galvan. I may be selfish but I want him to support. It's because his support would mean so much to me.
"Ayaw mo ba sa naging desisyon ko dahil hindi ako sayo umuo?"
Biglang nabasag ang hawak ni Shan na babasaging baso. His hand was bleeding. Nagkalat ang mga bubog sahig. I'm scared. He's really mad.
"I'm not covetous Selena. I want you to be happy pero hindi sa ganitong paraan," mahinahong sabi niya.
He played an audio.
'Others kids have their Mom. I don't have one. I wish I wasn't born. So Mom won't need to go away just to avoid me.'
Napalunok ako nang marinig ko ang boses na 'yon. I want to see her. I want to go to her. She's not just upset. She might hate me.
"I tried to defend you. I tried to explain your side. But she's just a little kid with a broken heart," dagdag pa ni Shan. "You are her Mom. You should know better."
"Shan... Anong gagawin ko?"
I don't know if I could leave Galvan. I don't think that's possible. If I do, I'll break him once again. I'll hurt him again. But I have to think of the situation. I should plan to find a solution. He had Ven and I have my little girl. We couldn't coexist.
"Marry him if that makes you happy," ani Shan.
Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. I thought he's opposing that. I wasn't expecting him to say that. He's mad because I am neglecting my little girl. Pero bakit hahayaan pa rin niya ako?
"If you're happy with him, marry him. Talk to your kids then if they're fine with it, get married."
Still, I have no courage. Hindi ko magagawang sabihin ang tungkol sa amin ni Galvan. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula.
"Would she even understand?" mahinang tanong ko.
"She loves you. She'll understand."
Kinuha ko ang first aid kit sa kwarto. Tinanggal ko ang nga piraso ng bubog sa kamay niya. I can't believe I'm dealing with this again. Ito talaga ang ayoko sa lahat. Kasi nakikita ko talaga ang pagdugo. Nang matapos kong lagyan ng disinfectant ay binalot ko na ng gauze ang kamay niya.
"I'm sorry for saying yes to him," paghingi ko ng pasensya sa kanya.
"Your sorry would just make me hurt even more. You're making me a sour loser," iritadong sabi niya.
