Stuck

Chapter 18

As soon as I heard the door close, I let more tears fall, about 30 seconds passed before the door opened again, I looked up to see Yuta, I was not expecting to see him of all people I could see.

He walked over to me and stood infront of me, "You wanna talk about it, I'm a good listener." he said.

I looked up towards his face confused, "I don't hate you, I just don't really know how to aproach people." he added, I nodded looking back down.

"I'm serious though, if you want to talk, I can listen." he said as he went and sat at the chair that was at the desk.

I ended up telling Yuta everything I had just said to Jisung, he was right, he is a good listener.

"You say you feel stuck, like you're the cause of everyones distress. If it makes you feel any better, most of the members enjoy you being here, a lot of us haven't had people to care for in a long time." he said.

"Even Winwin said you lighten up the mood in this house, WINWIN said that." he said, I looked up at him confused.

"Really? I've never even said a word to him." I said sniffeling from crying. "He's like me, he doesn't know how to aproach people, and Korean isn't his first language so he's not confident in it." he added.

"Oh, I thought he hated me." I said feeling really stupid, "All I'm going to say, if you can get me to talk first, get close to Jaehyun, and gain the trust of Taeyong, we don't hate you." he said.

"You were also friends with Doyoung before you found out about this right?" he asked, I nodded, "Yeah, he by far has the most trust issues out of all of us." he added.

"And if you can make Taeyong and Doyoung trust you, that's when you earn the trust of all the members." he said adding on.

I sighed again before thanking Yuta for listening, "You don't need to thank me, just don't think what's happenng is your fault." he said earning a smile and a nod from me.

Yuta and I ended up bonding with each other for a while, Yuta is actually a fun person to be around after you get to know him.

"Oh, Yuta? Do you happen to know where Jisung went, I feel like he took what I said the wrong way." I said, I wanted to talk to him to make sure he knew it wasn't his fault.

"Probably Jaemin or Marks room, he tends to go to them when he's like this." he said.

"Thanks." I said before laving to go find Jisung, I went to Jaemins room first as it was the closest to Jisungs.

I knocked before hearing him say I can come in, "Oh, hey, whats up?" He asked, I didnt see Jisung.

"Nothing, just looking for Jisung." I said before heading out.

I then went to Marks room, "Mark have you seen Jisung?" I asked, he shook his head. I went to Haechans room, there were a few members in there gaming.

"Have any of you seen Jisung?" I asked, they all shook thier heads.

I checked by every members room the one's that were in their rooms also said they hadn't seen him.

I checked out in the living room, and asked the members that were out there if they'd seen him, they all said no, I then checked with Hanse, he wasn't with him either.

After finding out no one had seen him, I went up to Taeyongs office, 1 to see if he was in there and 2 if he wasn't, to let him know.

I knocked, I hadn't talked to Taeyong much outside of work, but in this situation I didnt care how much I had talked to any member.

After I heard an ok to come in, I opened the door, "Oh. That's a face I wasn't expecting to see." He said, I looked around worriedly, "Do you know where Jisung is?" I asked being more frantic.

He shook his head, "No, have you checked with the other members?" He asked I nodded, "No one knows where he is." I said.

"Is there anywhere you think he would go?" He asked me, he was also sounding a bit frantic.

"Maybe our house, I don't know." I said, "Anywhere else?" He asked, I shrugged, "I don't know."

I started to have a little bit of a breakdown, I squatted down and clutched my hair in my hands.

Taeyong came up to me and squatted down to match my height, "Jieun, everything will be ok, I'll make sure he comes home with us." He said before patting my back and walking out of the door.

I heard him gather all the members down to the living room, "127 come with me, Wayv go start searching close by, Dream, You guys stay here and make sure nothing happens, Jisung is missing. Make sure Hanse and Jieun don't leave, it's too dangerous for either of them to go out side right now." I heard Taeyong say in the distance.

He held a lot authority in his voice, after it had quieted down I heard some footsteps come up stairs, "Jieun, where are you?" I heard what sounded like Jeno's voice.

The footsteps stopped outside Taeyongs office, I hadn't moved since he left, even if I didn't want to, I kept thinking about the worse outcomes.

Like, what if they don't come back with him, what if something happens, what if he went out and did something stupid?

I couldn't stop the thoughts, Jeno had come in, he was trying to calm me down he called the others in too, I couldn't calm my breathing.

I could only feel fear rushing through me that something happened, I felt like I couldn't breathe though I couldn't stop.

I was holding onto Jeno like my life depended on it, I've had panic attacks before, but nothing like this.

A/N: hello again, I'm in pain, but it's ok, I have wanted to cry all day, but that's normal. Gotta love being a senior in high school.