Indecisive [h.s.]

chapter 12

"Are you done?"

what was that,
potentially unnecessary.

"well I'm not one of those girls you usually do that with but it's whatever, it's over with now your forgiven, you can leave"

It was obvious he was not taking in anything I was saying as his eyes were elsewhere.

"I'm sorry okay, let me just change this shit yea? let's just go"

the words leaving his mouth sounded out on and pathetic like he didn't care about what he was saying, distracting me but the tone in his voice was just soothing, it showed a little bit of sympathy and interest

"go where?"

"with me,
on the plane let's just go.
you mentioned the other night, at the club you wanted to go to New York

he remembered.

so let's go. Right now"

go to New York? it had always been portrayed as such a beautiful busy city with so much imagination and a city that never sleeps, by the sound of that was not to like. I had always dreamed to go well I had with Sar but she has always been a very relaxed person who hated the idea of new places and travelling but this was a vacation she liked the idea and It had been on my dream board since I was 5 and the thought of going

"yes?"

no, I couldn't possibly?

"so?"

"no harry I can't just run off"

I couldn't?

"it's only for one night, let me take you around the city show you around, show you some of my favourite places, mess around have some fun then we can come back the next morning

"I"

in time for your shift"

I mean no I couldn't it was irresponsible right? not to mention a ridiculous idea and running off with a man who was technically a stranger, a doochbag to be specific.

"I can't harry I'm sorry"

Did I want to go? yes yes I did but I couldn't it wasn't right, he didn't say anything just something about his eyes looked disappointed but it didn't show on his face but I could see it but this is how I felt and it was final.

She wasn't going to change her mind and she didn't want to look at him again so I did what I do best, walkout
walk away from the situation.

"Vera..."

no Sarah leave it out, please.

"did you let him explain himself"

yes, I did.

"did you listen to what he had to say
no, you didn't"

"It wasn't big but it made me feel like shit"

I hate like I felt that she was taking his side, I know she wasn't she was just thinking logically.