sapnap x reader [hold my hand]

what's this? a bonus chapter?

A high frequency is ringing in my ears, its pierces through my ear drums. I shoot open my eyes and take in a deep breath of air. Shorter and faster breaths reach my lungs as I sit up out of my bed, pulling at the chords hanging from my body. A group of people hold my arms down and lay me back down onto the bed. I can feel my heart beating, its pumping so fast it pulses through my body. The panic that was arising in my body slows down as I try to catch my breath, my eyes darting around the room. The satisfying sound of the heart monitor beeps at a consistent level.

The thoughts that are racing through my head at what seems like one hundred miles and hour rest at just one person. "NICK!" I sit back up out of my seat to see Nicks bed, beside me, empty. I'm looking around the room for any signs that he was just here. None. Tears begin to well in my eyes, my hands come up to my face and my knees curl up so I'm in a ball.

I would have rathered to stay dead then to be brought back into this world without the only person worth living for. I let all the tears run down out of my hands. A warm hand is placed onto my back, and I assume its just one of the nurses comforting me. The feeling of a warm hand turns to the weight of a person sinking into the bed next to me. I look up to see him, he's there.

"Nick?"

He has tears in his own eyes, letting them fall down his face as he forms a smile and nods. I lean into his warm body, wrapping my hands around his neck. He falls into my comfort, squeezing me tighter every second. "I missed you y/n, I missed you so much." I smile into his neck, and between gasps of air return with, "I missed you every minute I was gone."

"Y/n, you were never really gone, neither of us were," Nick says in a really soft tone, not disconnecting the hug.

"What do you mean? What even happened?"

"Well after we closed our eyes, my heart stopped and yours didn't."

I lean back from the hug and stare at him, holding my hands up against the stubble on his cheeks, wiping away the tears. "Then why, how are you here?"

"They had immediately grabbed the defibrillator and used it, and- and it worked. When they did it to you, they realised your heart had never stopped, your brain just shut down. You slipped into a coma; you've been out for months."

"You waited for me?"

"Once they had let me go, I refused to believe you could be gone. Of course I waited for you, I came here everyday from opening hour to closing hour, who do you think changed the flowers?"

I look over to the bedside where his gaze was, there was a healthy vase of lilies. I smiled to myself and looked back at him. He pulled himself completely onto the bed and wrapped one arm around the back of my head. I leant into his shoulder, resting my head between his arm and chest. He rubbed his hand up and down my arm in reassurance.

"I love you, Nick."

"I will always love you y/n."

"Forever and always."

I put my pinky finger out and he connects his and we shake on it.

"Can't break a pinky promise."

"I know, I wouldn't"

a/n: hey everyone! surprise surprise, I wrote another chapter! thank you all so much for reading my book and voting and commenting on it. i really appreciate you all, let me know your thoughts <3