Fall

Chapter 14

Maddie's P.O.V

PRESENT

After that conversation. I went home i  didn't stop myself.

I always support them maybe hindi man nila alam pero palagi akong sumusuporta sa kanila kahit nasa malayo.

Tomorrow is my flight going to davao since bukas ay December 24 na kaya. I want surprise them.

Majoy message me that malapit na matapos yung pinapagawa namin na hospital. We're kinda low-key about that.

Hindi naman sa ayaw namin ipaalam but we wanted to surprise them about our plan.

Kinabukasan ay naghanda na ako dahil maaga yung flight ko dahil gusto ko agad makarating sa davao.

Sobrang bilis lang ng oras at nandito na ako sa Davao. I missed my hometown.

"Maddie." Mama run to me.

I hugged them. I miss them so bad and i'm here now.

Some of my cousin tease me since i'm the only one left na single.

"Maddie ano ba yan wala ka pa din doon nakikilala." Biro ni micheal.

"Baka kasi siya pa rin yung tinitinok ng puso mo." Asar ni kuya ian. Tinawanan ko nalang sila since wala naman akong magagawa eh.

Nag prepare na ako para mamaya sa noche buena. I cooked adobo since its my specialty.

"Merry Christmas!" We all shouted.

We did a picture after that and i posted it on my social media. This is what i miss here in the Philippines.

Iba pa din yung pasko kung kasama mo yung mga taong mahahalaga sayo.

I spend my three days here in davao and i could that it's one of the best thing happened.

"Yrnea, wag mo masyadong i-stress sarili mo sa trabaho." My mom said.

"Maddie, matanda ka na wala ka pa bang ipapakilala sa amin." My papa said.

"Trabaho muna papa. I need to prioritize my patients."

"But you should also rest."

Christmas break is already done and i'm going back to manila. Si mama ay hinatid ako sa airport. 

"Nak, mag iingat ka doon." i will miss them again.

"Yes ma."

"Nak, we're not pressuring you ah. Don't mind your dad kung wala ka pa din girlfriend or boyfriend." I smiled at her. They knew what my hearts want and they accept it.

"Bye mama, i love you po."

Tinawag na yung flight ko mahigit two hours din yun kaya nakatulog ako sa byahe. Sa saturday na yung alis namin. Today is thursday kaya bumili na din ako ng mga pasalubong ko.

After that conversation with them. I told deanna that she doesn't need to say sorry to me. Because it's not her fault. It was my decision to leave.

Tyang and eya is here in my condo. Aalis kami at pupuntang tagaytay para puntahan yung The coffee farmhouse. I love coffee kahit grabe na yung kaba ko umiinom pa rin ako ng kape.

"Diba si jho yan? Sino yan na lalake?" Sabi ni tyang kaya napatingin kaming dalawa ni eya.

"Tyang si ate jho nga yan." Nakahawak yung kamy ng lalake sa bewang ni jho.

"Diba si jho ate bea pa?" Tanong ko. Nagtinginan kami nila tyang.

Hindi na kami tumuloy sa The Coffee Farmhouse. Bumalik nalang kami sa condo ako yung nag drive. Nag order nalang kami ng food. Papunta na din si majoy dito.

"Hindi ako makapaniwala. Stress ang twitter." Binuksan ko ng pinto si majoy.

"Bakit ate majoy?"

"Trending ang jhobea sa twitter hindi dahil sweet sila pero may nakakita daw kay jho na may kasamang lalake." So tama nga yung nakita ko.

"Sabi ko na sa inyo ate eh, bakit kasi hindi si ate ej sa akin naniniwala. Muntik pa kami mag away ng teammates ko dahil kay ate jho."

"Eya, baka may dahilan si jho kung bakit niya yun ginawa." Sabi ko, after all kaibigan ko pa rin si jho.

"Huwag natin husgahan agad si jho." Sabi ni tyang.

I'm going to ask sila ate den when deanna called me.

"Hello deanns?"

"Ate mads, where are you?"

"I'm in my condo deanna. Why?" 

"Can you go here in the BEG, galit na galit si ate bea kay ate jho. Faster please." 

Nagpaalam muna ako kila tyang napupuntahan ko sila bea. Agad akong nakarating.

"Bea, i'm sorry." Umiiyak na si jho.

"Jho why did you do that? I thought you love me. I can give you everything you wants." 

"Hindi bea, hindi mo kayang ibigay ang lahat sa akin. Minahal mo ako pero hindi yun sapat bea." 

"Ate jho!" 

"Fuck jho! I did everything for you but yet you betrayed me."

"Hindi mo ako minahal kagaya ng pagmamahal na binigay mo kay maddie noon. Nakita ko yun bea sa mata mo. Huwag mong lokohin yung sarili mo, hinahanap mo pa rin yung pagmamahal ni maddie."

"Jho don't bring maddie here." 

"Bea tumigil ka na. Mas lalo mong sinasaktan yung sarili mo. Natatakot ka kasi hindi mo matanggap na hanggang ngayon mahal mo pa rin si maddie. Masaya na ako bea itigil na natin yung deal na ito. Naging masaya naman tayo bea." 

"Jho." 

"Pero hindi mo kayang labanan yung tadhana bea." Niyakap ni jho si bea at umalis na.

Bea is crying non stop. Tumakbo siya sa labas at sinundan ko siya. 

Gesu...

I sat beside her, nilapag ko yung panyo ko sa tabi niya.

"You can always cry bea. Stop being hard on yourself."  I looked at her.

"Life is so unfair."

"Maybe life is unfair but it will gives you a lesson, bea."

"It doesn't."

"I'm sorry bea for everything. I'm sorry kung hanggang ngayon nasasaktan ka pa din ng dahil sa akin. Sorry kung naging duwag ako bea."

"I already forgive you maddie, but why i can't forgive myself. Why can't i forget you maddie. Bakit hindi niyo ako kayang ipaglalaban?"

"It hurts me when i see you cry. It hurts me when i hear eya's story about you that your crying because of med school and i'm not there."

I need to listen to her this is not the right time na maging matigas yung ulo ko.

"We promised each other that we're going to be the best duo for life but what happened? I left because i was hurt."

"I left bea kasi hindi ko kakayanin kung mananatili pa ako. I'm too coward bea kaya hindi kita kayang ipaglaban sa buong mundo.  Masakit pero kailangan kong maging malakas for myself."

"But we can do it together naman maddie. I'm tired from everything. I want to go back to the past mads, i'm scared what will happen in the future. Don't leave us again."

"I'm sorry."