Last Drop of Coffee (Lost Souls Series #1)

Chapter 18

CW // Mentioning of Blood , Sexual Violence , Self-injurious behavior , Drugs.

Hindi ko alam, hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman. Kung, gusto ko ba magalit? masaktan? o mag-wala. When he wanted to court me, on my special day, on the day that I was born, I was the happiest.

Words can literally kill you in the most hurtful and horrid way. Because even if it's just one sentence–it wrecked me and my self-esteem, it all crumbled all at once without asking for permission.

Noong sinabi ni Ellie, na buntis siya. Gusto ko na maghandusay sa lupang tinatapakan ko. Do I deserve this such pain? no.

I want to ask, gustong-gusto ko na magtanong, ngunit walang ni-isang salita ang lumabas sa mga bibig ko. I was just staring at Aeolus, kneeling in front of Andromeda.

Andromeda's crying, it made my heart sink more. They're hurting and so do I.

"N-no, nothing happened between us." malamig ngunit nanginginig na tugon ni Aeolus sakanya.

"Really?" saad naman ni Ellie habang may pagka-arogante ang nakalagay sa kanyang mga labi.

Ako naman ay nakatitig lang sa kanila. Not a single word came out from my mouth. Gusto ko nalang umuwi at umiyak sa kandungan ng nanay ko. I could hear the loud cryings and sayings of help inside me.

'This is your fault' I massaged my head as a little burning sensation from my heart started to rise and the words in my mind were also repeating, blaming me for everything.

"Why are you so proud?! Yoy drugged him–and fucked him without consent! What the fuck is wrong with you and your obsession to my brother!" Andromeda shouted and was about to get the swiss knife from the table full of clothes.

'If only you were not born from this family. It wouldn't end up like this' Another word came out from my brain.

I tried to hit myself and pulled my hair to stop myself from hearing a loud crippling noise from my head.

"You don't know anything! You don't know me and my reasons!" malumanay ngunit may galit na sigaw ni Ellie at kumuha rin ng plato at binasag ito. Kinuha niya ang isang nabasag na parte ng plato at itinutok din ito kay Andromeda.

May mga gamit nang nakatutok sa kanilang dalawa. Swiss knife ang tinutok ni Andromeda kay Ellie at isang bahagi ng nabasag na plato naman ang nasa kanang kamay ni Ellie.

"Your reasons can't erase the fact that you just fucked my brother without a fucking consent!" Andromeda's fist went hard and her angry face shifted to a cold and dead one, "Abort it." dagdag pa niya.

"N-no, n-no! T-this is my child!" Ellie cursed underneath her rapid breaths as she tried to hug her belly. It was a petty situation.

'You should just kill yourself' another voice went inside my head.

Umiling-iling ako, hindi-hindi dapat ako magpapadala.

"Aray!!" Andromeda shouted in terror, pain, and loathe.

Dahil sa sigaw niya, nagising akong muli sa katotohanan at nawala bigla ang mariing mga pangungusap sa aking isipan.

I realized what the situation really is. Nakabaon sa kamay ni Andromeda ang isang kabuuhan ng platong nabasag. Her swiss knife also got caught up by Ellie's chin, resulting for Ellie having a cut in the cheek.

Kanina pa pala umalis ang mga musicians. Siguro natakot sa biglaang pagsabog ng galit at poot ni Andromeda.

"B-blood," that was her last words after fainting. Andromeda fainted.