I'm in Love...with a Rockstar (MCR)

Chapter Four: On Our Way

        We play Halo until our fingers are numb, and no one says anything else about Jared. There is this kind of awkward silence until my thumbs begin to UN-numb and I shoot Ray in the back. He smiles. I keep my lips pursed. Finally, the sky outside the bus goes dark. I don't know what time it is, but I don't want to sit here anymore. I stand up and set the controller on the seat.

        "Night." I say and walk over to my bed and climb in, not bothering to change into p.j.'s. I pull the covers up to my chin and close my eyes. I think about Jared. I really don't want a boyfriend. He's just my friend and I don't want him to be more than that. Ever. My phone beeps. It's still on the couch next to Gerard. I sit up and he tosses it to me. "Thanks." I slip the covers back up to my chin. I flip open my phone. Jared.

Hey Pierce.

Hi.

So...you're in a famous band now.

Yeah.

Do you like it? Its fun right?

Yeah.

        I seem to like one word answers. I'm trying to keep things as un-awkward as possible, but I don't think its working. I don't want to like him.

I miss you.

....

I wish you could've come to dinner with me. I think you would've enjoyed the place I picked out.

Kay... :(

What's up? Why the sad face.

Nothing.

Come on Pierce. Something is most definitely bugging you, what is it?

I kinda......I dunno

You kind of what? Whatever you have to say, you can tell me and I promise I won't tell anyone. Whatever you have to get off your chest, you can tell me. I'm a great listener.

        I close my phone and set it on my desk. I can't tell him what I need to get off my chest. Because it is bad things said about him. I close my eyes, but I can't sleep. I lie there for hours, silently listening to my band member’s conversation.

        "You think she's okay?" Mikey.

        "Who knows? Boys seem to be tender subject for girls to talk about." Ray.

        "I think she's going through boy trouble." Mikey.

        "I wonder if he likes her, and she is staring to like him, but she doesn't want to because he is her friend." Gerard.

        "Maybe." Frank. I listen, pretending to be asleep. Gerard hit it right on...I think. I was going through boy trouble. I know Jared likes me. But I just can't like him the way he wants me to. I just want to be his friend. I wish he wanted to be my friend too. Just my friend. Nothing else.

        "I'm worried about her." Mikey says. I open my eyes a millimeter, so I can gaze on the group in front of me. They are all looking at me, concern splattered across their faces. They can't see my slightly open eyes, and for that I am grateful.

        "Do you think she's ready to be in a full time band?" Ray asks, brushing a hand through his brown afro of hair. "I mean...it might be too much to take in for a teenage girl."

        "Yeah. Maybe." Mikey says. I close my eyes again, turning over. "Shhhh. Don't wake her." I turn my phone on silent just as Jared texts me again. I flip it open