One-shots (Jensoo)

To my jennie

- A story i just thought of when i was listening to 'to my youth' by bolbbalgan4.

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To my jennie,

Hi jendeuki! I'm sure you're crying when you're reading this, so please don't. Don't cry, you know how much i hate seeing you cry.

I just want to say im sorry, i know you are startled or shock with the news you've heard. I'm sorry cause i know you're mad at me now, and i hurt you. Im sorry if i hurt you.

You stayed by my side like no one else, you're my best friend and for that thank you.

Everyone has always told me im bad luck, or im a piece of trash but you.. you really stayed with me and stick with me.

You made me feel lucky, and made me see my worth. You made me smile, happy and made me feel other beautiful things i didn't know i deserve.

But the happiness i felt by day, is always gone at night. I cry myself to sleep, i even do things to myself  that i don't want to tell you cause you'll get mad.

The world seems so dark to me, it's been so harsh and it tortures me. Everyone seems to judge me or say mean things me.

It gets to the point that i don't know what to do just to make them appreciate me.

And you, you're the only light i see in this darkness im feeling. You enjoy listening to my boring and dull stories, you laugh at my lame jokes, so really im thankful i have you.

Words can't express how much thankful i am that i have you, that you came to my life and keep up with me for years.

My life has always been lifeless but when it comes to you, everything just seems to be so colorful.

I like you, jennie. Not just as friends, but something more. I like you, like you, and im scared to confess because I don't want to ruin what we have.

I don't want to lose what we have because its the only reason i try to wake up everyday.

I can't confess because my life has always been filled with darkness and i don't want yours to be filled too, you deserve so much happiness that i sometimes think i can't give it to you.

You made me strong, made me stay in this world longer. Thank you for always protecting me, for always listening to me.

I wish you happiness, jennie kim. I hope in the next years of your life you won't forget me, or our memories together, cause I'll treasure it.

Its my turn now to protect you, and guide you even though im just watching you from above.

Don't worry, ill stay by your side. I always will.

So don't be scared, don't want cry, don't be in pain.

Im finally okay now, im finally in peace.

I hope in the next life, in another world, another time. We'll get to meet again, and maybe it's the time that everything is okay.

Maybe I'll finally have the courage to confess to you.

I hope to see again that gummy smile of yours, your dumpling cheeks, your cat eyes. I hope i can see you again.

Promise me that you'll be happy, okay? Please be happy and be okay, thank you for everything jendeuk, really thank you.

I love you, jennie kim.

Sincerely,
Your jisoo

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Jennie closes her eyes as she cries, crumpling the piece of paper she's holding.

Falling on her knees, crying harder on the grass. Opening her eyes as she looks at the grave, heart getting heavy as she never felt a pain like this.

Looking at the picture, she sobs harder. "Jisoo" she stutters, voice in pain as she regrets she didn't save the girl.

"I love you too" she confessed, crying so much that it started raining. As her tears fell on her cheeks, as she cries the world was crying also, raindrops falling on the ground.

A confession she wished jisoo knew, she wished she was given a time were she had told the girl.

She loves her best friend, the two of them love each other but it seems like this wasn't their time.

Maybe jisoo was right, in another world, another time, in another destiny, in a parallel universe, they'll end up together.

But for now, they'll endure the pain, they'll treasure the memories they have.

They made each other happy, they loved each other, as best friends and more.

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(A/N: to everyone who is having a hard time or is struggling right now, please know that everything will be okay in time, look at the bright side and you're not alone! Ily :))