the guide to stop loving ; txtzy

𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘖𝘯𝘦

The earth's rotation is faster today. Or at least, that's what it feels like for me. I have been getting loads of e-mails from different people, and some of them aren't even worth the read. This happened because of that interview with a famous Tik Toker, she wasn't even that good with talking to people. All she did was giggle and laugh at the smallest things I tell her. It's annoying, honestly. I knew I shouldn't have done that. Now here I am, with my glasses on and my hair tied up in a bun, reading all of the applications these people sent me.

Owning and managing this camp was healing for me. Empathising with the people in this camp, made my know that my feelings are always valid, but now, I think it has changed drastically. This camp. Is stressing me out.

"Miss Yeji, do you need anything?" My personal maid, Stella, opened the door without even knocking. I almost went blind because of the light coming from the outisde. I always keep my lights off.

I squinted and told her I didn't need anything, and reminded her again to stop entering my room without knocking.

I have trashed another e-mail. Great. So far, I have only accepted 2 out of the 40 e-mails that I have read. I still have 60 plus more e-mails to open. Oh good universe please help me.

As I clicked on the next e-mail, my eyes widened as I saw what is was. Instead of a long story about how this person got a broken heart, it was a resume. It was a guy named, Choi Yeonjun. He's a year older than me, and he wanted to become a life guard.

Well... that's... useful. I never wanted to get a life guard, if someone drowns then so be it, we all have endings anyway.

This Yeonjun guy is actually kinda hot. His hair was beautiful, his eyes were very expressive, and did I talk about his cheekbones? Yes, they were very pretty too. His whole face is.

I saved his number on my phone, and wrote a response to his application. Of course, I didn't accept him immediately! I still need to interview him, and ask what else can he do aside from saving people from drowning. If he didn't get to answer that, I won't accept him. I am very selective with the people I let in this island. But of course, I will still keep his number.

One Week Later...

My alarm went off, and my hands panicked to turn it off as soon as possible. I woke up again. That's nice, isn't it? I scratched my forehead as I felt my head being punched by Jackie Chan every second.

I unlocked my phone, and it had one notification from my mail.

New E-mail from official.crestfallencamp@hyj.com

I laughed as I read the e-mail from the account. I wasn't even that serious when I decided to send them an application. I only thought of it as a joke. I mean, seriously? Who would build a luxurious camp in an island just for broken hearted people? That's just plain stupid.

Then, another notification came. This time, it was from my messages.

BABE ❤
can we please talk?

BABE ❤
I still love you, Lia

Fuck that, I'm going to that camp.

♡

"Dude. You have to stop drinking." Jeongin told me, pulling the shot glass filled with Soju away from my quivering hands.

Jeongin's my friend, and he unexpectedly visited me today just to check if I'm going to drink first thing in the morning or not. I was about to, but then he got in without even ringing the doorbell. He's got keys to my apartment. I trust him that much.

"I haven't even took a single sip today," I replied as I roll my eyes at him. My head hurts like hell.

"Yeah, but you drank yesterday and is still having a hangover." He threw me a whole pad of Advil and a bottle of water which I caught on time.

"You should stop this Beomgyu, seriously. Ever since she—" He cuts himself off as I shot a glare at him. I can't let him finish what he's saying. I just can't. My whole body still wouldn't process that fact.

He began talking as I made myself the usual soup for my hangover. I learned how to cook it ever since I started drinking. Living alone is not easy.

I checked my phone, and an unknown user sent me an e-mail. I immediately recognized it when I read its whole address. Sighing, I looked up to Jeongin and told him that I'm leaving the city later.

"What's the hurry?" He asked.

"I'm in a hurry to forget things already."

♡

"I don't get it!!" I shouted at the top of my lungs.

My dad went rushing to my room, and asked if I broke a limb. I told him I didn't, but my heart did. We were so happy last month! What happened? Did I do something wrong? I gave him most of my time, and now he's doing this to me?

"No texts. No calls. No updates. What a happy life." Sarcasm took over my voice, and my dad noticed right away.

"Oh dear... I always knew he would be bad for you." My dad pulled me into a hug. I didn't cry. Why would I? I am Shin Ryujin, and ghosters aren't worth my tears.

Good thing that camp accepted my application. I wouldn't sulk in my room anymore, and wait for his messages. He chose to forget and leave me, then I choose to do the same thing.

I asked for my parent's permission before sending the application of course. They let me go since they know it's what's best for me right now. In fact, I'm excited to leave and forget him already. My clothes are all packed in my luggage.

This island will make me forget everything. Our 10 months relationship. Him. And of course, the pain he caused.