All By Myself

17. Crushes

In was going on my third day trying to avoid Josh. I was on my way home after a long day at school. "Need a ride? " he pulled up on ghetto side on me and said.

Ashley's house was not that far but I had P.E earlier today in school and my legs were killing me. I looked at him and rolled my eyes. "Sure. " I signed.

I hopped inside of his Mecerdes Benz. It was red with flames, tinted windows, and rims. He parents were basically rich you could say.

"Why have you been avoiding me? " He said and I could feel his eyes burning a hole in my neck.

"Avoiding you? " I mumble curiously trying to play dumb. I really didn't want to talk about this right now.

"Please don't play crazy. The weekend of my party everything was perfect but on Tuesday you starting avoiding me and you have been ever since. You've blew me off about 5 times already. " He said with a sad voice.

I looked at him, as he looked back at me with curious eyes. I could tell je was not about to let this go so I decided to tell him.

"Josh, I....I kind of... ughh" I studdered. Maybe I should save the part about me liking him for a different day. "I've never really told anyone about what happened to me. You were basically the first one to know. Something about you just seemed so trust worthy. But when I saw you kiss Harmony, the girl I hated, it just made me feel that you were using me or playing me or....  it's stupid. " I say feeling dumb about even speaking up about it.

"I didn't kiss Harmony, she kissed me. " He said with a disgusted tone. "I literally had to scrub my lips, tongue, and gums about 5 times after that kiss happened. " He jokes. I chuckle. "And don't worry about what you told me, I domt break pinky promises. "

He looked at me and I smiled. It felt really good finally getting that off my chest.

"Maybe you were jealous because of out kiss. Maybe you like me. " He laughs.

"Ewwwww, Of course not! " my voice goes high as I made the most ugliest face I could. He practically died laughing.

"Mhmm, whatever" He says "And I know you like me, but don't worry I like you Cassie, I like you. " He says in a serious tone while pulling up to my house.

I quickly got out of the car. I basically ran into the house and slammed the door.

"Girl don't be slammimg no doors in here like you pay pills." Ashley says coming out her room with a green face mask on and her hair tied up.

"Sorry. " I say laughing.

I walked into the bathroom stripping of my clothes. I stepped into the shower to go daydream about... you know who. I smiled just thinking about it. It wasn't often that I actually found someone I liked. Just as I said before, it was rare that I found someone I actually like forreal. Everyone hung with me to boost there apperence basically so Josh was like my only real friend boy or boy friend. *I liked it either way, but I would never tell him that though. *

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WEDNESDAY

I walked through the hallway. I walked up to my locker to get my science book for my next class. "Oh my god!" I said aloud. I had forgot the password key to the lock on my locker. "Ughh" the was like the fifth time this school year man.

Just as I began banging on my locker, Josh walked up. "4238!" He laughs. He knows my code better than I do.

I put it in. "It's not funny, you noodle head. " I punch him and say. He cracks up even louder. "My feet are killing me." I complain. He finally had stoppped laughing.

"You want a piggy back ride? "He asks.

"Are you serious? " I say with a huge grin.

"Come on, hop up." He says kneeling down.

"Aww, for me? How sweet" I say wiping away fake tears. I get on his back holding on to his shoulders and arms. Woahhh, he was muscle bound.

He walked to the science class. We both had that class right now. "No P.D.A ! " Our teacher yells as hr puts me down.

"Trust me, it wasnt P.D.A " I say

"But you wish it were though "he winks and laughs and walks to his sit across the class room.

1 hour and 25 minutes later, the bell had finally rung. Josh was off with his homies and Lala and Mari hadn't came to school today so I was walking down the hallway alone for the current moment.

I walked by a paper that read: "Cheer auditons at 5:30 in the school auditorium. Beginners are welcome. If you would like to be Casper High Cheerleader, then we would love to have you ."

I had been cheering for most of my life, I even cheered for my old school so cheering was not new to me. I didn't know if I should tryout or not. "What's the worst that could happen? " I asked myself. I decided I should tryout.

Just as I was walking away from the cheerleading poster I saw Harmony walk up to it. "This seems fun. " she says signing her name on the paper.

"Oh No! " I say....