Coffee Talks: Proses And Roses

Broken Friendship

Have you ever been really close to someone? Someone you used to tell all your secrets to? Someone who used to lift you up when you're feeling down? People talk too much about how difficult it is to deal with break ups. But no one ever really said a word about broken friendships.

I used to have a friend that I was close with. We would always talk on the phone and tell each other our deepest fears and regrets in life. But like any other things, there was an end to it. It never really lasted that long.

When that happens, you try to deal with recovery. You try to accept the truth that maybe they weren't meant to stay in your life at all. And then in the process of trying to live without them, you realize how much you miss their presence. How much you long for those days when you used to be around them.

I remember that friend every once in a while. When I visit a record store and stumble upon a vinyl of their favorite band, I'd picture them. When I stare at my book shelves and accidentally glance at the book they got me for Christmas, I'd think of them.

And this is how life is. People come and go. People get into our lives to teach us something valuable. But they aren't really meant to stay forever. And frankly, that's okay.

I'm trying to get over this broken friendship because I know that I'll probably meet better friends in the future. I'll probably meet people who wouldn't make me feel unimportant or annoying when I message them. Someone who wouldn't make me feel inferior or bad about myself.

I guess things like this happens to us for a reason. For a while, we may not know what the reason is. But when we get old and start looking back, we'd wonder why we were ever worried of losing them.

They were meant to go and never back.

And that's okay.