Coffee Talks: Proses And Roses

Christmas

I haven't truly processed that Christmas is just around the corner. Apparently, it's approaching pretty fast. And unfortunately, with all the school works going on around me, I was so busy complying to my requirements that I've forgotten to seize December, probably my favorite month of the year.

I have so many memories of Christmas growing up. And I've always treasured them as I get older. I love hearing loud holiday songs blasting repeatedly on the stereo as my family prepares our meals for Christmas Eve. Or how Mama would host a small game for us with cash prizes (one of my favorite parts of the celebration).

But Christmases when I was a kid were always the best. We would run around the enormous halls of Aunt Mel's house---playing silly games with our cousins and staying up all night talking about ghosts and scary stories. I remember how we'd drive around town in the morning and buy our favorite snacks to eat by the pool.

Last 2017, we celebrated Christmas in Seoul. That's, by far, my most memorable holiday. I have deep love for winter season. And nothing beats the idea of celebrating Christmas with the chilly night air and snow glowing around the streets.

Now that I've aged two decades, I somehow feel like the Christmas spirit is slowly dissipating. Don't get me wrong, though. I still enjoy the holidays just as much as I enjoyed it all those years ago. But dealing with anxiety, OCD, loneliness, and everything in between? It makes Christmas a little sad this year.

But since it's almost the merriest time of the year, I don't want to fill this entry with negativity. Like the old days, I want to look forward to spending Christmas with my family. Just the sight of them being happy, healthy, and safe is enough for me! That would be the best gift this year!

I hope you get to spend the holidays with the people you love, too. In this crucial time of pandemic, God knows how much we deserve to be surrounded by them.