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chapter 19

Jimin pov:

He was kissing Maira.....he-

I faced away abruptly feeling broken.
My lips felt dry that we're still parted from the unrecovered trauma I had witnessed. My feet started to move on their own, to the opposite direction now as I hung my head low, my bangs draping over my disgruntled visions.

I watched as a ball rolled over my side and ended up against my foot. I raised my head a little reluctantly and saw two middle school boys running up to me. 

"Hyung! Could you pass the-"

I kicked the ball so hard, it flew between their heads making them dotch in response and turn back to see it slam against the wall. The reactions on their faces were amusing to watch when they noticed the slight crack on the concrete and how the ball was lying deflated on the ground. 

Before they could say anything I walked past them, slugging, dragging my foot lazily, tired of everything. I paused when I felt a liquid run down my face. My fingers trailing over them and viewed it in curiosity. I scoffed at the mere fact that I was tearing up? And for who?

And here I thought he was busy with his work-

I laughed at myself feeling dumbfounded.

How did I even think? Just another fucking betrayer-

How could I even assume that he was the one...for me? How could I forget that he was nothing but just another police officer doing his duty, not that he cared for me....not that he loved me? How did I fell for him so hard that it's causing me so much pain to see him with someone else?

I shouldn't have gone off my limits. I shouldn't have let him cross the line I used to draw for everyone else but him. I should've just accepted my faith and the truth that...I don't have time for love, for affection and devotion to other than my policies. I should've just stuck with my plan and killed him from my life a long time ago but-

It's too late now cause you've made the devil in me rose again officer. So, Imma takes it my way now. You just wait and watch-

I grinned before walking away.

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Author pov:

Later that night, Maria was in the shower as she shut her eyes feeling the burdens swish away her shoulders when the warm water trickled down her body. The glass was covered with vapour as she slowly washed her hair and slicked them back, raising her head, letting the water drip direct at her face now.

And to be honest, she wanted to cry her pain out in the shower. The pain and discomfort she had inside her when she got rejected just a few hours ago were more than her worse period cramps. She felt her eyes tear up as the wick ran down the corner of her shut lids along with the water, being unnoticed in the mist atmosphere that was created inside the shower stall.

The words that came out of his mouth hitting her like a brick still shudders her mind and stabs her heart repeatedly.

'I'm sorry noona but.......I love him,'

She sighed a chuckle which soon turned out into a grim and she felt herself broken, sobbing loudly in her palms. She never thought of going through such misery at just a simple rejection but it did hurt like hell. After all, she's been liking him since her high school days.