Love me: Kawaki x reader

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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

I'm not quiet sure if it's considered emotional abuse but yeah

I had an older disabled brother and a younger brother. But because the oldest was disabled I was considered the oldest.

At first it was just me and my older brother. It wasn't so bad at first. My parents taught me how to feed my brother with a 'Tube' while they went to work.

They taught me how to change his diaper. They taught me mostly anything.

They would yell at me when I didn't change him in time or when I forgot to feed him.

I'd cry of course. Anytime they would yell at me I'd cry, so they'd say "Why are you so sensitive?" Or "Shut up before I give you a real reason to cry"

So, I stopped crying.

Then my baby brother was born.

I was 6 the youngest was 2 and the oldest was 7. I was 5 when I started staying alone and taking care of them. I'd feed my brother whenever I could since I couldn't read the time.

When my parents came home they'd start with "Why isn't this done?"

We would have our happy moments but that was rarely. My borthers on the other hand would receive affection or praise mostly everyday

Was I jealous? Not exactly. I understood that one wasn't able to do anything and that the other was still learning

At the age of 7 I confronted my mom about the way she made me feel. She made me feel like a disappointment. She made me feel responsible for every action my younger brother would do.

I entered the room and kept my distance and stood by the door in case things went wrong, so she wouldn't slap me or do anything to my face.

"Hey ma?" She gave me an exaggerate sigh "What do you want now? Don't you get tired of bothering me all day?"

I started telling her about what she made me feel, but she didn't like anything I was saying

"So I'm the bad guy now?" She asked "No I just want you to see my point of view-"

"You don't love me do you? You hate me right? Is that it?" I shook my head "No I just-"

"You wish I were dead right? If I died you would be happy right?"

My dad walked in the room "Leave her alone already"

"Why are you always taking her side!? This is why she does whatever she wants!"

"All she does is take care of her siblings. Nothing more nothing less."

Mom glared at us "If you keep taking her side I am going to divorce you" She looked at me "And it'll be all your fault if you keep misbehaving"

Was I really going to be cause of my parents divorce?

I don't want that. Especially for my dad. He's always been so nice to me and didn't pressure me at all or even make me feel guilty for anything and for me to pay him back by ruining their marriage?