Begin Again

Chapter 16

Taylor's POV:

"Oh heyy!" He says, daring to smile at me! The only response I give him is a gaze of mixed emotions ranging from rage to pain to regret. Regretting that I was too stupid to not see his true colours earlier...

His smile fades away after a few moments when the anger in my eyes doesn't seem to be dissolving. His eyes on the other hand, are full of regret, guilt, and also ache. But seeing him this vulnerable still doesn't make me feel any better! Just witnessing his figure in front of me at this moment is making me stand as if my feet are nothing, I wish I could disappear into the unknown, or maybe slap him, but god didn't bless me with enough courage to do either, not even to kick him out of here! I'm basically a lifeless statue right now. But at least I'm succeeding in not ruining my mascara.

"Taylor...I- I'm sorry," he sighs then bites his lower lip, "and I miss you."

My eyes widen at him in disbelief, not in an anger this time but in pure torture.

"I only want you to hear me out, hear what I have to say then you can do whatever you want...Even if you'll ask me to disappear forever and never show up to you again."

I keep my lips sealed for a few more minutes thirsting to scream at his face after everything he's done to me, but I'm still trying to hold myself together. He's ignored the feelings I confessed before and left me behind like I was some heartless plastic bag, and I'm not letting this happen again.

"I don't listen to unnecessary talks from strangers." I try to sound as fearless as I can be.

"Stranger?" His face expression changes, "I know damn well that I'm not a stranger to you Taylor..."

"Then you are delusional."

Joe stays quiet for a few moments looking down with an ashamed face before he starts speaking softly, "I know you're so mad at me that's why you're saying this...But I'm pretty sure you still miss me too, otherwise you'd have just shut the door by now."

"JOE WHAT DO YOU WANT? WHY ARE YOU HERE?!" I frown, but my voice sounds so brittle.

"I just wanted to say I really am so sorry for what I did! And that..I love you..." He confesses in a deep low voice.

My brain stutters for a moment as my ears took in way more than I expected,

"ARE YOU INSANE?!" I crack up, "DO YOU HAVE SOME BET WITH YOURSELF ON SEEING HOW FAR YOU CAN GO IN HURTING ME?!"

"No it's no-"

"One day you deal with me as a friend, the next day you fuck me, then you decide to act like it never happened and ignore my love confession cause you suddenly realise that you've a girlfriend! Then you forget about my existence for a whole month, and now you come all the way after me to tell me you love me?! Do you think I'm a fucking toy?!!" I pause trying to catch my breath, "and above all this you're literally in a relationship!! What a fucking asshole you are! Imagine how your girlfriend would feel!"

"I'm not in a relationship! Me and Gigi broke up." He says firmly, "Listen..I know you've the right to be wiped out, and everything you said is relatively true. I know I've hurt you so badly..But I do love you, with every sense of the word Taylor," he speaks so gently with his ocean eyes being full of green hope that I'll forgive him, "I don't have an excuse for my actions, but I do have an explanation-"

"I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT. JUST GO AWAY. LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

He sighs then stays quiet for some time looking despondent, "ok...I'll leave. But can I give you a call in a couple of days?!"

"Don't even dare to!"

"Taylor you're not even giving yourself a chance to understand or forgive me!! What's this called?!"