11pmOlivia was in her room, she was online chatting to Natasha, while texting Ash. She didnt want to let Tasha know, and it was a little harsh but Tasha was already asking loads of questions. She didnt need more. She kept her phone hidden and just texted back discreetly.
Ash :) :
"Still on skype too Natasha?"
Olivia :
"Yeah, going on 2 hours...i dont mind, i miss her"
Ash :) :
"I know...it will be hard to begin with. Hey...what are you doing tomorrow?"
Olivia :
"Uh..i dont know. Nothing i dont think, why?"
Ash :) :
"Do you....want to come over? We were all gonna go out for something to eat later on tomorrow anyway?"
Olivia :
"Sure! yeah i wouldnt mind"
Ash :) :
"Awesome! thats great"
"You know...there cant be that much going on, on social media?" Natasha giggled. Olivia looked up at the screen and smiled. "Oh...no there isnt...just scrolling through tumblr...sorry" Liv lied. "Oh, so tumblrs more important?" Natahsa raised an eyebrow. "No...course not" Olivia laughed quietly looking at her. There was a short silence. "So...is everything okay?" Tash asked. "Yeah why wouldnt it be?" Olivia made a face. Natasha shrugged pouting her mouth to the side a little. "Im just asking...everything stress free?" She asked. "Yeah, its going okay. I think its getting better every week."
"Well...that sucks...but also good." Tasha smiled. "I know, i still miss home. I still miss you, and weird...i miss our school" Olivia admitted and watched as Tasha's face turned offended. "Ugh what? how?! your living the life in Aussie, please do not miss the sucky school here" She told her. "Tash, its where i lived. I met people like you when we went to that school...i had good days, bad days and stupid first year crushes!" Liv giggled. Tasha nodded then bit her lip. "Speaking of crushes...." "No Tash for the millonth time, i dont have one!" Liv lied blanky. "No, i know...its just...your old crush" She half smiled.
Raising an eyebrow Liv shrugged. "Who?!" She asked. "Remember...fourth year?" Tasha pushed. "Yeah....sadly." "Who did you have a crush on...?" Olivia looked around her room trying to remember. "Uh....Tash...please, i dont understand" Liv laughed a little. "Jay!" Tasha shouted a little. "Oh yeah....Jay Castle." Olivia nodded. "Such a sad time in my life right, thats what you said" Liv giggled. "Yeah...thats the thing..." Tasha made a face. "Huh? what?" "Okay, so...Jay has been in more of my classes this year, and we've started talking." Olivia nodded as she listened. "Okay...and?" She asked. "Well....we now have each others numbers..." Tasha carried on. "What?!" Olivia spoke loudly.
"Oh...okay calm down! its nothing...its just a movie and food!" Tasha defended herself. "What! your going out with him?!" Olivia asked. "Yeah...but hes changed...hes different" Tasha told her. "Uh, you were the one who told me i was crazy to like someone like him!" Olivia shook her head. "I know...and i was right, but hes matured now. He's so cute...and well...i can not see him, He was your crush" Tasha finished as she saw Liv's face. Olivia thought to herself. "No...no...dont, you go out with him. Ha, i dont care! i liked him for like a week two years ago...there is nothing there now" Olivia told her. Half of it a lie.
"Are you sure?!" Natasha asked. "Course, yeah!" Liv nodded. "Okay cool! we're going out next week!" She nodded. "Coool...." Liv trailed off. Right now, after everything with Jay and school...she felt kinda betrayed by her best friend. She knew how much she liked Jay, and she was the one who kept asking her why she liked someone like him. He was a tall...good looking, yet ass who loved himself and loved attention. Olivia sighed putting her head down. To see the last text from Ashton. Maybe this was a good move. Maybe she was on the right path to experience new things and...meet new people. She smiled looking at Ash's name on her screen. "Liv...i gotta go, but ill text you okay" Natasha told her. "Oh...okay" Liv nodded looking at the screen.
"Okay, love you so much. Miss you! i wish i could hug you" Nastasha pouted. "I know...me too" Liv nodded. "Well im still trying to get my mum to try and get a holiday here for summer!" Tasha giggled. Olivia nodded agreeing with her. "Oh and by the way...Jay told me he thought you were cute. You were a great girl....and he'll miss ya" Tasha smiled. Looking at the screen Olivia's smile dropped. "Okay, well bye love you!" Tasha smiled and blew a kiss before the screen went blank. Why the heck would a best friend go out with a guy, who she liked, now he told her he liked her?! Was she for real?! Natasha knew the shit she went through third and fourth year of school, and Jay was another huge problem in her mind. How he would talk to her, laugh with her, then at her.
He would act big around his friends then ask for hugs when he was alone. What the fuck?! He fucked with her mind, making her think he liked her. She looked down at Ash's name again and sighed. She really hoped this wasnt going to be the same. Four boys, all attractive wanting to talk to her and be their friend? something isnt normal with that....is there? Her playlist on her laptop played in the background. Soon a song came on she'd hadnt listened to in a year. She clicked opened her playlist and it had moved to a new playlist. Her old one, which she had on repeat when she was back home last year. As music played, all the bullshit from bullies, and school work flashed in her mind. Things she didnt want to remember. How people made her feel good, then shoved it back in her face.
Olivia sat on her bed, listening to the old music which made her feel...like nothing at the time. Breaking down she lay on her bed and sobbed quietly. She hated school! she hated back home! why did she miss it? Why did she miss her best friend who was now betraying her? Why the heck did she miss some asshole boy who made her feel like nothing sometimes?! Looking up at her laptop, then at her door she sat up. She looked down at her pyjama shorts and wiped the tears away from her cheeks. Getting up, she walked into her bathroom. She opened her drawer and looked through them...picking out her cosmetic sissors she held them tight. She closed her bathroom door and sat down on her closed toilet. One line...and she would feel better. She looked down at her thighs and took a breath.
