Heartbreaker

Heartbreaker 13

Chapter 13

     Lizzie

Ryan opened the door for me and we entered his house.

"Are you sure your mom won't get mad at you for ditching school?" I asked him.

"Nope, because no ones here until five o'clock in the afternoon."

He opened the door and we went to his room. I sat on the bed, while he sat on his chair.

"You're room has changed a lot over the past years."

"Yeah, the wall color... About it." He joked.

We both laughed. This was extremely awkward. Like, you don't even know. We stared at one another for a few seconds then stared at the wall, and so on. Suddenly, he got up and walked over to his bed.

"Look, I don't want things to be awkward between us." He told me as he reached for my hand.

"It's not, it's just, you-" I told him as I trailed off.

"What?" He asked me.

"I've never opened myself up like this to anyone." I replied to him as I pulled my hand away.

I stared at his black carpet. I could see him out of the corner of my eye. He was just sitting there, looking at me. If my heart beat any louder the whole world would've heard it.

After a few seconds of awkwardness he said, "Oh."

"Yeah." I replied.

"So, tell me, what really happened at the party?"

"Nothing, really..."

"Tell me the truth." He told me.

 I looked at his chocolate eyes, they were shinning.

"Well, when I got there, he called me up to his room. It was two hours before the party actually started. I walk in his room and you and Kevin were there."

"Wait, I remember this! You entered his room and Lane told us to leave because his "lover" was here. After we left, you came in and he locked the door."

"Yeah, that's exactly what happened. Anyways, after you two left, we watched TV. I don't remember what we watched, but I remember him going down stairs and coming back with popcorn. Everything was awesome, until he turned off the TV. He told me that we should move on. In reference to, we needed to go further... in our relationship. I asked him, why we're perfectly okay where we are. He replied with, it's love baby."

I stopped talking and rubbed my forehead.

"I was so stupid," I continued. "We were kissing and before I knew it... We were on his bed."

Ryan's face was clearly saying don't go on, but I did. I took sighed and took a big breath.

"We had sex." I told him avoiding eye contact.

I saw a ton of different mixed emotions cross his face from the corner of my eye.

"What?" He sadly asked.

"I'm so- I feel so ashamed."

"I just- But - wow." He trailed off.

I just looked down at my hands.

"Why did you have sex with him? Why?"

"I don't know! I was caught up in the moment and I mean he was my boyfriend and I don't know. I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize to me. You didn't do anything, it's just the fact that Lane and you-out of all the people, it had to be that bastard."

"How do you think I feel when I'm around him?"